baggy sweatshirt ON PAUSE // joshler au

c h a p t e r e i g h t e e n //fuck love

josh woke to a tapping noise, as he took in his surroundings he noticed he was in his car

that's odd.. when did i get back to my car and where the fuck am i?

when he looked to see where the tapping was coming from he saw it was a police officer. Rolling down his window he noticed a few things. the windows had fog on them and the air smelled as if it had just rained, josh loved that smell. the sky was gloomy and grey. the scenery looked depressing as hell, but josh found peace in it. this was his favorite kind of weather after all.

"young man? are you aware of what time it is?" the officer questioned. josh merely shook his head,

"um, no.." he glanced at the clock

7:25am

"it's 7:25am son, do you have anyone you can call?" the man had a look of genuine concern on his face, it kind of reminded him of how tyler would look at him.

oh shit. tyler. 

josh could feel an anxiety attack creeping up on him. his throat started closing in on him, palms becoming more sweaty as he thought about what happened just yesterday. he was hyperventilating now, his whole body was shaking and then black.

+

when he finally woke he was on cool concrete and the officer was crouched next to him.

"what happened?" the boy questioned.

"you passed out for about five minutes, i got you out of your car and set you on the floor so you wouldn't hurt yourself. you had me worried, are you okay? do you need a ride home?" josh was very grateful for the generous man.

"please." 

+

when josh got home he ran bath and plugged his phone in. once his phone was finally on, he had assumed it died sometime last night, he noticed about 20 texts from a worried tyler.

tyler: josh.

tyler: baby.

tyler: please answer me.

tyler: at least let me know you're safe.

tyler: im sorry.

tyler: please let me explain.

tyler: josh come on.

tyler: im seriously starting to get worried.

tyler: baby please.

tyler: i know you're mad.

tyler: just let me explain.

tyler: i swear there's a reasonable explanation.

tyler: i realize now you probably need space. 

tyler: at least call me when you can.

tyler: im sorry.

josh scoffed at all the messages. he went to tyler's contact and blocked his number. he was done with getting his heart broken. no more would he allow this to happen to himself.

"fuck love." 

he put on his most depressing playlist on his phone and got in the bath.

he sank down to where the only thing peaking out of the water was his nose and up, everything else completely submerged. 

he was so mad at tyler.

every time he thought about him all he could see was jenna's tongue down his throat. he literally gagged at it. 

how could tyler do that to him? was josh not good enough? was he not pretty enough for tyler? 

he just can't imagine what made tyler think it'd be a good idea to do something like this.

he decided he didn't care anymore, closing his eyes and letting the music and water take over his body, he fell asleep in the bath. he didn't mind it though.

+

yesterday afternoon: tyler's pov

tyler knew he had to break things off with jenna, especially since he and josh were becoming more serious. he chose to invite her over after school and do it then.

to jen: hey can you come over after school today? i gotta tell you something.

from jen: ofc, see ya then ty ;)

tyler cringed at the nickname, liking it better when josh called him that.

eventually jenna showed up as planned and was now in tyler's bedroom.

"so, what'd you wanna tell me?" the blonde asked while twirling a piece of her blonde hair around her finger. 

tyler took in a deep breath attempting to calm the anxiety clawing at the back of his throat "well, ever since you've been gone, i started talking to this guy, and i really like him and i feel like were going nowhere and i wanted to break up with you basically." jenna burst out laughing. 

"you cant be serious? you're leaving me for a little gay boy? are you fucking kidding me tyler?" he shook his head to answer "no." jenna just smiled devilishly, "ill just have to help you realize that this is just a phase."

suddenly jenna was in his lap kissing softly at his neck, tyler tried to push her away but all she did was move his hands to her ass. tyler knew this was wrong but one last fuck wouldn't hurt, right? 

no. he couldn't. "jenna-" he was cut off by her smashing her mouth to his. he kissed back immediately. he knew this was wrong, but it felt so good. 

tyler pushed her off again, "jenna i cant-"

"relax tyler, ill make you feel good. i promise." she connected their lips again and ground her hips down onto his dick. tyler sighed into the kiss finally giving in, letting whatever was going to happen, happen. 

all of the sudden (brendon urie BURST THROUGH THE DOOR) tyler's door was flung open.

"tyler, he- WHAT THE FUCK"

lmaooo im baackkk after twenty one (aye) days, oops. but high school has been hectic lately and then personal shit also (nothing bad but just some stressful things). anyways, this chapter is shit and i dont wanna read over it rn so theres prob errors and idek what im doing anymore with this book but oh well. have a nice day/night/afternoon!