The Way I wanted You to Need Me

FOUR

Seokjin's POV

Days passed but I still can't find the right words to say to Nan Hee. I kept on asking her about the past but she was never answering any of my question.

Maybe she's right. She doesn't owe me those years. But no matter how hard I try not to look at her, my eyes always lands on her.

Yoongi was assigned to the emergency room for a week. I was feeling lonely at my office so I went outside to visit some patients. I went straight to the pediatrics center to see those kids. And they've lighten up my mood.

Dae Ahn, a 10-year old cancer patient confined at the hospital approached me.

Dae Ahn: You look so troubled these days, Dr. Kim.

Jin: Jinjja?

Dae Ahn: Ne.

Jin: Care to know a secret?

Dae Ahn faced me and raised his right hand.

Dae Ahn: Promise, Dr. Kim. I'll keep this as a secret.

I sighed.

Dae Ahn: Wae, Dr. Kim?

Jin: She's back.

Dae Ahn: Nugu?

Jin: My first love.

Dae Ahn: Woah.

Jin: i know you won't understand how I feel.

Dae Ahn: But you can tell me everything, Dr. Kim.

Jin: Fine, fine.

Dae Ahn: But first, please show me a picture of her.

I took my phone and handed it to him.

Jin: Look at the gallery, you'll see an old photo.

Dae Ahn scanned through it and he stopped when he saw a photo of me amd Nan Hee back when we were in college.

Dae Ahn: She looks familiar.

Jin: Really?

Dae Ahn: Hm.. oh! I remember! I saw her yesterday.

Jin: And then?

Dae Ahn: She's the new doctor, right? She's so nice and very pretty.

Jin: I know.

Dae Ahn: What happened to the both of you then?

Jin: We were inlove with each other.  But we broke up.

Dae Ahn: Tell me how did have you met her.

Jin: I met her throught her cousin, Dr. Min.

Dae Ahn: No wonder why they have such resemblance.

Jin: We've entered the same schools until college. When I fell inlove with her, everything became magical.

Dae Ahn: Magical? Tss.

Jin: I hope when you grow up, you'll experience that kind of magic.

Dae Ahn: But now the magic I need is an extension for my life.

Jin: Be positive,  Dae Ahn.

Since I had no schedule for the afternoon, I stayed with Dae Ahn. While we were walking outside the hospital, Dae Ahn suddenly smiled.

Jin: Wae?

Dae Ahn: Dr. Kim, look who's coming.

I looked around and saw Nan Hee walking alone. She was currently talking to someone on her phone. But Dae Ahn was just so excited that he approached Nan Hee.

Dae Ahn: Annyeong, Dr. Noh.

Nan Hee: Hello, Dae Ahn.

Dae Ahn: I'm so glad you remember my name.

Nan Hee: Of course, I would.

Dae Ahn: Dr. Noh, let's go.

Dae Ahn grabbed her hand and they walked towards me.

Dae Ahn: Dr. Noh, stay with us here.

Nan Hee: I still--

Dae Ahn: Jebal.

Nan Hee: Arasseo.

She sat beside Dae Ahn and kept her phone on her pocket.

Dae Ahn was sharing stories about him until I noticed that his nose was bleeding.

Jin: Dae Ahn? Dae Ahn, your nose is bleeding.

Nan Hee: Mwo?

Nan Hee knelt infront of Dae Ahn and she wiped off those blood.

Nan Hee: Dae Ahn, are you okay?

Dae Ahn seems to feel weak so I carried him and we took him to the emergency room.

Nan Hee and I waited for him.

Jin: You can go now if you want to.

Nan Hee: Ani. I want to know how he is.

I took my handkerchief and I wiped off those blood stains from her hands.

The feeling I got was the same when I first held her hand.

Nan Hee: It's okay. I can wash my hands. Aigoo, look at your polo. You've got blood stains on it.

The pedia assigned for Dae Ahn came out of the emergency room.

Dr. Bang: Dr. Noh and Dr. Kim, thank you for bringing him here.

Dr. Kim: Did it for Dae Ahn.

Nan Hee: How's Dae Ahn?

Dr. Bang sighed.

Dr. Bang: He needs to have a transplant. He badly needs it. The sooner the better.

Nan Hee: I'll do everything I can to to find donors for him.

Dr. Bang: Thank you, Dr. Noh.

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Nan Hee and I were walking at the hallway when I noticed she was on tears.

Jin: Nan Hee? Are you okay.

Nan Hee: Oh, yes.

She wiped off her tears.

Jin: Then why are you crying?

Nan Hee: I just feel sad for Dae Ahn.

Jin: Nado.

Nan Hee: Where are his parents?

Jin: They left him when he was diagnosed.

Nan Hee: How about his hospital bills?

Jin: Yoongi and I are paying for it.

Nan Hee: I'll find some potential donors for him.

Jin: Thank you.

Nan Hee:  For what?

Jin: For coming back.

The moment I saw how sincere she was to help Dae Ahn, I became sure that my feelings weren't gone.