5sos smut

Luke~

It's been a few days and I haven't gotten a single text from him. His beautiful blonde hair and his amazing voice and his nice toned body and his even more amazing personality.

He is so much better than me. I don't deserve him and maybe that's why I haven't received word from him since he left home for our days off.

I felt sad and unwanted.. I went to take a shower to cool off from all this anxiety. I let the shower run and as I was undressing I looked up and I saw a glare from my recently unused blades since Luke came into my life.

The water was running and I was alone in my apartment so I decided to feel the burning sensation I needed to feel better.

I sat on the edge of the tub and started slicing into my thighs. I couldn't cut my wrists because I wouldn't let anyone see those.

35 or so cuts later I finished with the last slice into my inner thigh where it hurt the most.

I finally stepped into the shower and let the hard water hit my newly damaged skin.

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted.

The tears were already streaming down my face and as the song played, they streamed harder.

Coz I'm not fine at all

I was on the floor crying and watching the blood fall down the drain until the song ended.

I finally got up, quickly washed my hair and my body and got out.

I dried my hair and got dressed into some baggy sweats and I tee shirt as I heard I knock on the door.