Waiting in vain... for your LOVE

Hey baby I'm sorry, now baby don't worry....

I will be late, don't stay up and wait for me...

I said hey I'm dropping out my battery. ..

It's low and say, you know I'm going to a place near by gotta go...

I happily woke up from my slumber and neatly press my bed. Note the sarcasm. I'm not a morning person. I hate monday with so much passion, especially since now is a school day. Summer days were over and I'm seriously weeping inside.

I get my phone under my fluffy pillow and immediately press the stop button. As much as I love to listen to the music, I choose to lie down again and sleep for at least 5 more minutes.

"Wendy! Get your lazy arse up now! You won't want to be late on the first day of class, would you??!!" shouts my mother down stairs. She knows my habbit of sleeping again after my alarm has been stopped so she'll scream afterwards making sure I'll keep moving.

"Okay Mom! I'm going down", I shout back annoyingly. Never will I ever enjoy waking up at 6:30am.

As I reach down stairs, the smell of fried bacon, fried rice and omelets swarms over my nostrils. Thanks to my ever dearest mother, the food is already set in the dining table and I eat my heart out as if savoring every foods' taste in my taste buds that took me half an hour. She always prepares my food everyday, helping me minimizing my turnaround time preparing to school. Gulping my last drop of coffee, I hurriedly go the sink and grab a glass and pour water. I drink 3 full glasses then brush my teeth afterwards. I gagged every now and then while brushing my teeth because I consume caffeine again knowing that it gives my stomach a rumbling feeling causing me to gag.

I run hastily up stairs and almost trip myself but manage not to smack my face to the concrete staircase. Phew! I already reach the bathroom and take my time bathing. I took a bath almost 40mins. Have I mention that I am a slow mover? I do everything in a slow motion. I dunno why but I'm like this for as long as I can remember.

The water is dripping down my body as I walk out of the bathroom and go straight to my closet then grab my outfit for school. I wear my monday undies and matching bra then put on my plain semi loose gray sweat shirt, black skinny jeans and wear my black mary jane flat shoes. I blowdry my hair, letting my natural waves flow in my shoulder and put my black beanie and to touch some sence of femininity on my outfit, I grab my makeup kit and paint my face a little to cover some blemishes and add some color to my dull face. Just put foundation, lip balm, black eyeliner around my big eyes and super shock black mascara to add some drama. It creates an illussion that my eyes are bigger than usually are and soulful. Tada!!! and everything is set. I grab my black leather back pack and kiss my mom goodbye.

Commuting to Washington State University is quite long. Not that it's too far from our house but the everyday traffic is not helping if you're not an early bird.

September of 2009, i step my feet in my dream University; WSU - it's big and amazing. Just like I imagine it! I took online exam so this is literally my first time to see the uni. The weather is quite freezing; though it's quite a sunny morning. It has mini forest on the side with tables and chairs made of concretes, ready for those students on breaks or just passing time. It is near the school cafeteria which is not too occupied for the moment since its just 9am. I'm too nervous to wander around because I have no one with me. Looking to my surrounding, everybody has companion along with them and happily conversing over God-knows-what. I walk and walk in the lobby, still searching for the registrar so I can submit my documents and receive my schedule for the whole semester. ..

I start to feel dizzy in a bad way. I'm not used to have too much crowd around me before. Never in my wildest dream that this will be where I'll be on my own and start anew with this kind of environment... no scratch that... that is just an exaggeration. ..