Til we meet again

Puzzle Pieces (intro)

        I've never really been any kind or form of "popular" at school. Or in life. I guess im just the quiet girl who always makes references that nobody quite understands, or states inside jokes that nobody's "inside". I've always been the awkward one. The one who doesnt really fit in anywhere. But I dont mind. Im used to being left alone.

        There is a difference between people you talk to at school, and friends. Friends understand you. People at school are just the ones you'd pair up for a project or sit at lunch with. But friends share interests. They visit you. They know your favorite movie and your favorite show and you pretty much talk to them in most of your freetime. They know you.  They understand you.

        I've had this several times in my life. In elementary school, I had a best friend. You see, in elementary school, you dont care what you wear or what your clothes look like. You don't have your style. Everyone usually makes a best friend in elementary school because there aren't different groups on people. Theres no anime freak group or boyband group or white girl group or anything. Just kids. So you pick a best friend and you grow up with them and eventually,  develop a style. But since you have your best friend right by your side, you develop your style together. You become closer. You become almost the same person, which is why you always want to talk to them. You share interests.

        I had that. But the day I started junior high, it was all taken away from me. Like a page was ripped out of a book. And poof. Gone. Moved across the whole fucking country. And there I was. Alone.

         So making friends was difficult. Why? Because everyone had their best friends. Every one had their styles. We were all puzzle pieces.  Everyone found their match; and I was merely that piece you find under your bed that doesn't seem to connect to anything.

         I would come home and immediately get on Skype, expecting to catch up with my best friend, as we always would back in 6th grade. "Get on Skype!" Id yell as I got off the bus. But upon coming home, all I would see was the "offline" symbol. Oh yeah, I thought. Time zones...

        So I basically never spoke to her much.

         I considered myself a loner. Lost.

        That is, until I discovered the Internet.

        Not just the internet.

       

         Community.