Have you ever had a older or younger sibling that does everything they possibly can to annoy you? To make you feel like your not good enough like you just aren't trying as much as you could. I had that, but to be honest did I? My poor little brother always came back to me after I'd take out all my frustrations on him. Cause I was depressed and scared, I had anger, sadness, and so much confusion bottled in my chest and it hurt me because I didn't know why it was there. There was after all no reason for me to feel that way. And so my first mistake was creating a problem something that could take these emotions and give them a place other than that knot in my chest. And the victim of the blame always was placed on my confused brother. He could have won in a game and said "I finally got you!" And my mind would twist it in a scenario where I was the victim and felt justified to be mad at him. But it was never really him. And I hope anyone else who ever struggles with depression will take my own lessons into consideration. Just because we want a reason for the pain it does not give us the right to blame the pain on an innocent bystander who just wanted to help.
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I'm sorry
RandomI'm sorry to all the ones who left before really living. To all the friends and family who where gone before there time. And to all of the moments we lost when we lose someone dear.
