My Fucked Up Life

chapter 1: the childhood

I'd never thought about writing a book on my Fucked up life because i was so afraid of what people would say... but doctors and nurses, therapists, and teachers always told me i should so here i am writing this here book for you today... enjoy my fucked up life story.

My childhood was relitively normal from what i can remember... well up unill i turned 10 at least.

Lets start from the beginning...

My birth name is Kaze, I was born Febuary 24th, 2000 in the Ukraine.

My bioligical parents abandoned me and my biological brother when i was only a few years old and he was a year older than me at the time, i dont remember much but I do get flashbacks of things that could be related to this time in my life... But thats in the future lets stick to talking about the past for now. I was left on the streets to die by my biological mother and father, no one knows who they were and where they are now, so my past remains a mystery. I was eventually found and brought to an orpanage along with my brother, but i was extrememly sickly at this time. i was kept in the hospital to get surgery, and make sure i was nursed back to health. Once i was healthy enough to leave, i was returned to the orpange where my brother was at. Years passed and we got adoped by a lesbian couple. Their names were Lucille & Jennifer, they came all the way from Massachuses to adopt us. Things at this point were pretty normal from what i could remember, i had a loving and caring family, i got along with my brother, there was no reason for me to worry about anything in life.

Lets fast forward to when i turned 6, My birthday had just passed and i had not one, but two parties! i remember having one at my house with my parents and my brother, and having one at my Aunt and Uncles house. (Even though he is technically my Step-dad but i call him uncle for some reason) At this time up unill i was 10 my Aunt and Uncle were a huge part of my life, they were like a seccond family to me. they always brought us out on weekends after school to go to the beach, or to go shopping, or out to eat. I always had so much fun with them, I still dont entirely know what happend when i got older to be honest, i still don't. I remember always going to my Aunt and Uncles house to play Webkinz,Buildabear online, AQ Worlds, Moviestarplanet, Bella Sarah, or Club Penguin (probably a thousand other websites i dont remember) At this point i actually got along with my brother, I remember sitting across from each other in our Aunt and Uncles kitchen battling monsters in AQ Worlds, or playing Webkinz or Club Penguin together. Theese are the times I miss... I wish I could go back to theese times... Back when things weren't so crazy and drama filled, back when I didnt have to worry about self harm, or suicidal thoughts, or if I was safe, or if I would wake up the next morning.