True Friends

The Decision

I sat down on the sofa and sighed. I didn't know what to do. Today I planned on coming home from a day of misery at school and come home to end my life but now, things were different. I only had just met him but i felt like it had made the decision so much harder. I had a few different fates to decide. I could take the drugs as planned and be found dead on the living room floor. Or should I forget about all the bullies who have been torturing me for years. I did have Jay now. But was he really a new friend or was he just a kind stranger. He must of known who I was, the school freak, the weird one, loner freak or any other name containing freak, weird, teachers pet or loner and you have them all. Actually you can scrap teachers pet because the teachers bully me as well. The worst thing is that they see what's happening but don't do anything.

One time when they decided to beat me up in the Social Centre,and may I add RIGHT ONFRONT OF A TEACHER, the teacher just watched. That day I went home with 20 or so bruises and couldn't even breath without wincing in pain. Shockinly my parents are oblivious to me being bullied, beat up, used as a temporary punch bag and my depression. It shouldn't surprise you to find that out. The only thing my parents care about are themselves and money. Everytime when i bump into one of them on the stairs I ask why they are never here. They both answer with the same sentence every single time. "It's all for you darling."

Yeah right. They don't even know me.

You might think it would be cool to be home alone all the time but it has its side effects. As I am alone at school and at home I get depressed very easily. I never speak out my feelings and i never have anyone to talk to.

My head is still buzzing and thinking and wondering what i should do. Should i put my trust in someone who I have just met? Should i give up with life and drift off into the darkness of death? Should i tell someone how I feel? Should i try to make a better life for myself?

I don't know. That's the only answer I can think of.

I. don't. know.

After a few hours of thinking and having dinner with my invisible parents I came to a final conclusion. I needed to give Jay a chance.

Yes I didn't know him. But i could get to know him. The thing I am most worried about is that the kindness is just an act, a put on face. I'm afraid that he is kne of them and it is a wah for them to find more ways to hurt me...

Eventually after over thinking for another hour or so I finally went to sleep.

That night I dreamt about Jay.

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A/N

Hello again,

Here is the second chapter. It is just a smaller one but i wanted to do a chapter of what Live was thinking about and show that she is still deciding wether or not to commit suicide.

Thank you for reading.

The next chapter shall be soon and it shall be much longer! And have Jay in it.

Chow for now

Lx