Life
This is just a place where we'd have no choice, but to deal with life or death situations. Should I run away and hide from this place called home? Or should I stay and stick around with the people I thought was there for me? I know it's hard to know at this point on who's real or fake, but I don't think I have much of a choice anymore. I know I'm young. I know that ending life isn't worth it nor is the answer, but I feel lost. Lost in ways I can't explain, but there's also love... My heart is saying I should stick around, but am I in much of a use for the people who actually cares? Useless... I feel like I have no value. Life is just there watching me go through pain every morning and night. Yes, I may be pathetic and shouldn't feel this way about myself, but who actually cares? Am I living a lie? All I wanted was to be me and enjoy life... All I wanted was to live my life and be happy with the one I love. Every day and night, I try to cope with it all. Feeling pain and guilt. All these times I worry and care about using my time wisely, but I feel selfish. For taking someone else's time just so they can listen to me speak my mind out. I don't think I deserve to have someone there for me when I feel alone. I want that person to be there, but why should I even bother when I am in the dark all the time?Maybe I am wasting that persons time right now as I speak... I love this person so dearly, but I'm not sure if he's aware after my actions and attitude. Everyday I worry about losing him, but I don't know if he's aware. I feel bothered with myself... I'm doing my best. I am trying to find the answer to my questions, but I don't think I can defeat this darkness on my own this time...
- 2/27/19
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Inner Thoughts.
Non-FictionHey you guys, it's the admin of this account. This book I am publishing now is kind of like a diary... It's mainly about the things that's been on my mind lately... So, I hope you all like it. Thanks for your time. I hope you all have a nice day!
