Just another love struck kid

The begining of so much but ment so little

I was a new kid. Of course i was shy at first he was in my Reading Edge class, Cub time, & science.

The first day I was there I remember Mr. Thompson sat me at there table. I was telling Zayn where I lived & Later found out that he was bestfriends with my Ex Alex , I started liking him about 4 weeks later. On Valentines day I remember I wanted him to be MINE my friend asked him if he would ever ask me, That day I was wearing a white shirt with a bird on it & leggings. everyone was rushing out side but me & Audrey we were going to go through the office. I walked past him with a bunny marshmellow in my hand & Just as I was on the stairs he called my name & told me to go to where he was. So I went, He looked into my eyes & Smiled he was nervous, Well so was I my stomach was unbelivably crazy he looked down & looked back up & said "Will You Be My Valentine?" I couldn't help but blush I looked down & said yes right away. I was walking away & I stopped turned around and said "Do you want this marshmellow bunny? Its making my stomach hurt?" He laughed & said "No its fine but i'll get you something" I started grinning & walked away I saw my friend Tanya & gave her the biggest hug & Thanked her. We were on our way to lunch & Of course theres a huge line! Out of no where Zayn is standing by me & all my friends begin to laugh because i was so red. Zayn looked at me & asked "Whats your last name" i started laughing & For some reason couldnt talk all of my friends shouted "Cruz"

In our lunch room we have to wait to go throw our trash away & he passed by me called my name & gave me this choclate heart, I was so happy! Walking down the hall still not knowing anyone his friend came up to me & asked "What would you say if Zayn asked you out" I pertended to ignore him & just kept walking he asked me again i turned around & said "Yes." To get to my locker i had to pass Zayns locker so i saw him & smiled his friend ran up to him & yelled "She said yes she would say yes!" i ignored it. Next class was my science class, that day the teacher moved us around to different tables i ended up sitting right infront of Zayn next to him was Bryan & next to me was Chelsea we would play would you rather or truth or dare all the time .. We were playing would you rather.. We were all having fun & it was Zayns turn he said "I need to think of a question" He waited almost half the class! He finally said "I got one!" He looked at Chelsea & said "well its kind of a question for Emily" I looked at him scared it was going to be something gross .. But it was the exact opposite he said "Will you go out with me?" & i said "Yes of course" & Bryan was freaked out we all started laughing. We talked on Facebook for a long time he promised never to hurt me, Exactly one week later the 4

of us sat there he'd been wanting to tell me something for the whole class i kind of guessed i had a feeling. He wrote it on a piece of paper, The piece of paper read exactly this "Its over sorry ):" i acted like everything was fine but it wasn't! i was devastated. He looked at me & said "Remember that promise i made" i was acting like it was fine & said "What promise?" he said "Im sorry i hurt you." As soon as we left class i saw my friends & i couldn't pertend to smile They asked me "What's wrong" & i Broke into millions of pieces i couldn't keep it together i cried & cried he walked by & i acted like if nothing were wrong .. We dated acouple times 6th Grade year they werent long enough to remember, 7th grade came & we dated i think once or twice short time i can't remember, There was one time that actually ment something , 6 months.

I was head over heels for him. He was insanly perfect, everything about him was flawless. Ive never felt so free in my whole life. Zayn & I have always had problems when it came to finding out what to talk about when we were together. One of my friends Shaya made him feel bad & yelled "You're a bad boyfriend! You dont love her" & It made him feel bad, Me too actually i could see that those words hurt him.. He texted me that night saying "Babe im sorry for not being a good boyfriend i promise i'll change" & He did. the next day he sat with me at lunch & hung out with me the whole recess, I remember walking around with my arm holding his. or i would be standing there & i would feel his hand extend over my waste, he kept offering me piggy back rides but i didnt want to break him! it was kinda cold & of course i didnt have a sweatre Zayn tried giving me his but i wouldn't let him! Eventually he took it off & gave it to me i put it on & the scent of his cologne attacked my face, somehow that made me fall in love.. that was the second best day of my life, 2-3 weeks after I went to the fair with some friends from Carbondale. & we were walking around i was so sure that zayn wasn't going to come .. but i was wrong ❤️ He asked my friend "Hey have you seen Emily" & we were standing right infront of eachother but didnt even notice! When he saw me he put his hand around me, we went to go walk & he put his arm out while his hands were in his pockets that was a sign for me to grab on to him. So i did, I asked him "What ride would you like to go on?" & he said "I dont care you choose" so we were trying to figure out what ride & i finally decided The Pharoh ride. we got in line & at last got to the ride we chose the 2nd to last one & he extended his hand & i held it. ❤️

when the ride started i saw him from the corner of my eye staring at me i was wondering why, i heard his sweet delicate voice call my name "Emily" i looked at him & it was this feeling for just a second of us being the only people in the world His eyes they took me to another planet. he leaned in for a kiss. & All at once it happened it was all in slow motion his kiss was like this medicine that ive never tried, It took me to another planet i was in the clouds ive never felt so safe. we finally got off the ride & He told me he was going to find one of his friends but we would

Meet up later. The next ride we went onto is The swings, While the swing turned he held onto my swing & kept threatening to push me, I knew he was joking ❤️

in less then a mega second it was over. we were over, 6 months gone ive never felt like this before & i dont think i will ever feel like this again. all those memories replay in my head until i break, & i was fighting for him he just didnt realize he wont realize ever. thats why i've given up, Lost complete hope.