Pour Me Out

  The days past on and by the next week everything seem to have settled down. I was back to being a wallflower me. Not that I minded at all. It was better than any attention I was given last week. Honestly, didn't think that things would go back to normal so soon. I haven't seen Darley neither, not even in my English class. I won't lie, I didn't mind that at all either. Mom still hasn't talked to me about last Monday which I particularly find a bit strange. We're talking about the lady who gave me the 'birds and bees' talk in elementary because I has a crush on Ron Stopable from 'Kim possible'. I didn't bother to bring it up to her though. It was Wednesday and I was stopping by the library to pick up a couple of books that'll keep myself busy. The bell rang for lunch and I hurried to get in line first for my food. I picked up a chicken sandwich, some fruit and quickly punched in my id number and left to my usual lunch table to sit. After sitting down I immediately unwrapped my sandwich, subconsciously taking off the bread; eating only the chicken patty. When I was done I got up to leave the cafe. I was about the push the door to leave, when I heard my name being called. Knowing it was Aaron, I continued  walking.  I had enough of Aaron and I didn't want anymore to do with him. Moving on isn't the easiest thing. I'm not even a quarter of the way there.  A Crush I've had for years isn't going to go away in a week and a half. Let me be honest that crush had stop being a crush a long time ago. Its was something more. I've never been in love before, so I havent got a clue of what it feels like. Though whatever feelings I have for Aaron had to be pretty close to what love is; Even after what happened at that stupid party. I Made my way through the doors and continued the way to my locker. Aaron wasn't far behind , which only annoyed me further.   I saw the girls restroom and I knew that was the only place he couldn't follow me to. Well if he had enough common sense that is. So I began speed walking towards It.  But of course I  would trip just before I entered my sanctuary. Landing right on my butt. Aaron step in front me, Grabbing waist, successfully pulling me up towards him.

  "I would have went into the restroom too, you know. I've done it before." My nose was close to his own  and it was hard to remember why I was upset with him.

"Why have you been in the girls restroom. Scratch that, I don't want to know." I slightly backed away him wrinkling my nose at that thought as I tried to clear my head. "What do you want."

"Who do you think brought you home on Monday? You went missing and I heard about the Darley chick and what she said to you. I thought of the most randomness place that you could choose to go. I found you in the upstairs restroom." I was appalled. 'He was the one that took me home?' It makes a lot of sence because my mom still hasn't said a word and she's always all up in my business. Although if I were to  tell her that she would say my business is her business.

"Why?"

"Why did I go to find you? Or why did I take you home?" I shook my head. Making him scrunch his eyebrows in confusion.

"Why is it that whenever I try to keep myself away from you. You keep coming back, like it's your mission to make me fall for you and then break my heart? That first moment you caught me in the hallway, you should have left me alone. But no, you had to make me think you had feelings for me. And you kiss me! You knew well enough that you didn't have any feelings for me and you still kissed me. And not even a full day later you went and embarrassed me in front of everyone. I trusted you! Now here you are starting your process all over again. " , Okay I was being pretty open about my feelings but I needed answers. He looked away for a bit, but eventually his eyes found mine own again.

"I'm so sorry Terri. I'm not asking for your forgiveness because I know that I don't deserve it. I should have just left you alone but I couldn't. " , he took a step closer filling the gap between us. His calloused hand hesitantly wiped the tears that had escaped my eyes. Here I was doing what I said I wouldn't. Letting him in close again. "At first I didn't understand it, but when I kissed you I knew in that moment I fell for you.  Hell maybe I had way before then, but fact of the matter is I was scared. That may sound ridiculous to you but I never thought that I could love a girl. I've been through my share of girls and maybe that's because, I was only supposed to be with you all along." My heart then again started the stupid pounding thing? I did not know what to do. I searched his eyes for and signs of him being deceitful. But who am I kidding I can't read him. I can barely read myself. And so I mustered up all my courage and stepped back.

"Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me." and with that I walked away with false pride.

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