I usually don't talk about my feelings. I kind of just bottle them up and try to forget. But no use this time because its either this or therapy and I really don't want to have to do that bullshit. I'll start from the beginning.
When I was a kid, I was SUPER boy crazy! I had several crushes at once and I was your stereotypical "one direction, cooties believing" fan girl. But one day things changed. My older sister often had her friends over a lot and it was regularly the same people that would come over. One day, Liv (short for Olivia) came over with my sister Genesis. It was weird seeing her since Genesis only really brought the same people to our house. I played it off like I wasn't more-than-a-little confused about why she was there.
"Ziyanne! Get your ass down here now!" Genesis roared to me from downstairs. I groaned as I dragged myself out of my room. I trotted down the stairs and shouted at her "What do you want bitch?". She chuckled and then went straight back to serious. "First of all, fuck you! Secondly, meet Olivia. I met her at school." "What's up Olivia?" I said as shook her hand. "Sorry to interrupt this intro but if we are gonna go get icecream we should probably get it now. Zyanne, you comin'?" Genesis intruded. "Yeah lemme just grab my bag really quick." I hopped back up the stairs to my room and grabbed my mini bag aswell as my wallet and phone. I went back downstairs and headed out the door with Genesis and Liv. We got the icecream and headed to the city park to eat it while watching over the lake. It turned out Olivia and I had more in common then her and Genesis did. It was as if Nes (Genesis' nick name) was the third wheel and not me for once.
We got home and Olivia had to head home. I gave her a goodbye hug and that's when everything changed. I felt- weird. I decided to brush it off as just the first time meeting someone jitters. I rushed to my room and went straight to hed so I could sleep on it.
