Thank You George.

over before it had even begun.

Chapter Seven: 'over before it had even begun.'

The blinding light screamed in through the window, waking me up. Instantly, a headache hit me, causing me to clench my head.

"Hey. Sorry, do you want me to close the blinds?"
George was sitting at a desk, next to the bed, editing a video.
"No, no it's fine. How long have you been awake for?"
"Didn't sleep. Couldn't."

"George, where am I?"
I had just noticed I wasn't at home. I didn't tell my mum what I'd been staying somewhere else and I didn't actually know where I was.
"In my bed. Nothing happened, don't worry. Just thought it would be better than the sofa."
"Oh, you didn't have to do that. I would have been fine on the sofa."
"It's fine. Don't worry."

I had also noticed he hadn't looked up at me. He looked upset, almost angry.
"I'm sorry."

George looked up at me now. "Sorry? For what?"
"I don't remember anything. Did I say something to upset you?"
"No, no. Why would you think that?"
"You look upset. The voice isn't back is it?"
"No, no. It's not that."

Suddenly, something flashed in my head. Not a clear memory, but something.

~~~~

"She can stay here."
"Yeah, she can in my bed."
"Oooo, yeahh. I'll stayyy with Geeorgee."

...

"Because that's a brilliant idea, isn't it? Leave her here with George."
"Will what the fuck?"

...

"I know what you've been like recently; you just fuck all these girls and then piss off. She doesn't deserve that and we can all see you like her, it's not very subtle. You're shit at subtle!"

...

"Caannnn youuu keep it dooowwnnn. I'm tryinnggg to sleeepp!"
"Put her the fuck down."
"Will, just fuck off. I'm not sleeping with her."
"Oh please, save the bullshit for someone who's buying it."
"Will she's pissed! She lives hours away, she can't get the train like this and none of us are in a state to drive her home. Just leave it."

...

"I can't believe you! You've really thought this lie out! Fuck this, I'm leaving.
I can't watch him turn her into something she's not."

...

"George, are you—"
"Just leave it. I'm tired. Goodnight."

~~~

I snapped out of whatever that was, tearing up.
"What the fuck."
"What?"
"I just remembered what happened last night."
"What bit?"
"Something about 'I won't watch her become something she's not'? I think it was Will?"

George looked back at his laptop.
"Don't worry about that. Just..... just Will."
"I doubt that."
I sat up and hung my legs over the edge of the bed. I grabbed George's hand and squeezed it.

"I'm sorry George."
A single tear rolled down my cheek. "I am really sorry."

He squeezed back. "Don't be. He's right. You don't deserve to become something you're not."
"What? No, no George, don't listen to him. He's just-"
"No, you should go. This isn't going to work anyway, you know that."

"George."
"Just go. It's not worth it."

Another couple of tears dropped down my face. I don't know why this upset me so much, we weren't even a thing. I just believed we could have been something, even though I had only known him for a few days.
"Yeah, cool. I guess you're right. Thanks though George. You're actually a nice guy, don't let anyone else tell you that."

I grabbed my bag by his door and left the apartment.
I was a 20 minute walk from the station, hungover and freezing cold; I always forget a fucking jacket.

Tears streaming down my face, I walked slowly to the station, clutching my head.
I walked past the streetlight me and George has kissed under - only a few hours ago - , the car we drove in, the buildings that lit up his face. Everything had a dull tone now; nothing was as bright as it was then.

@ hellothisis(y/n)speaking:
hey, sorry i haven't uploaded since london. decided to take some time off and make some more friends.

@ hellothisis(y/n)speaking:
need to get some stuff out, another 'let's have a chat' will be out today.

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New video out tonight. Sorry for the slow uploads, life's just been a bit shit.

Rain poured from the sky, soaking me. As if this day couldn't get much worse.

Could have been better.