To Love A Beast - Absalom x Reader

Chapter 18

 (Your POV)

The whole walk back to the room was just complete silence. I didn't want to talk and Absalom didn't want to be the one to break the silence. I kept my gaze down the whole time, just following Absalom by looking down at his feet. I could feel him worrying about me because he would stop to look at me every so often.

All I thought about was my village the entire walk back. If that paper was published just days after my abduction, then what happened to the investigation? Did the marines find the missing people? Or did they officially call off the search and declared everyone dead? I wondered if Absalom would let me see the next newspaper, or maybe he'd hide it like he did with this one.

We finally reached the room and Absalom opened the door to let me in first. After seeing the big bed all the way towards the other side of the room, I wanted nothing more than to just lie down and sleep. 

Instead of waiting for Absalom I just walked up to the bed and slumped on it face first. I could hear Absalom's footsteps getting closer but stopped right behind me. I suddenly heard a low grunt coming from him so I slowly sat up to look at him.

You- "....What is it?"

Absalom suddenly put his hand over his face like he's shielding his eyes.

Absalom- "um...its just that...I didn't realize you were wearing a dress."

You- "Yeah...Perona gave it to me."

Absalom- "It um....it looks beautiful on you..."

I wasn't in the mood to receive compliments so I just got under the sheets and tried to sleep. I could hear Absalom sighing and taking off his coat and shirt then kicked off his boots. He then walked over to the other side of the bed and got under the sheets with me. But before he could lie down, I suddenly sat up and faced him.

You- ".......Why did you lie to me?"

Absalom just sighed and took a seat on his side of the bed.

Absalom- "(y/n), I wanted to tell you....but I was afraid tha-"

You- "-That I would leave you?...."

Absalom- "...well.....yes...and no."

Suddenly I felt anger wash over me, ever since I came here he made it seem like I needed him and that I can't live without him. If only he knew how sick and tired I am of being a prisoner. I have been afraid and trapped for too long already, I want to be free. I want to be able to get out of the room by myself and without Absalom. I just wish Absalom would just stop thinking about himself and consider MY feelings.

You- "....Absalom....are you always this selfish?"

Absalom- "..(y/n)..its not about me being selfish.."

You- "Then what?!...You knew I wanted to go home but you NEVER let me go!"

Absalom- (y/n) please-"

You- "This whole time I had ben worried about my family and village and you knew this whole time."

My voice started to crack and I felt tears coming but I tried not to break down in front of him, not while I'm mad at least.

Absalom- "(y/n), I wanted to make sure your village was safe before I told you the bad news."

You- "...So what if in the end everyone I've known and love have been killed? What if the Marines decided to stop investigating? .."

I could no longer fight the tears back and I felt a few run down my cheeks.

You- "Were you just going to keep your mouth shut until the day I officially forget about them? Were you planning to keep me a prisoner forever?...Is this how you repay me, even after I asked you to marry me?.."

Absalom had a saddened look on his face, did he finally open his eyes or did he never look at it from my perspective? I suddenly placed my hands on my face and I broke down in tears. I hated crying in front of people but I couldn't stop the tears. I was angry and sad, I felt like a ticking time bomb that finally went off. 

I felt Absalom's weight shift closer to my side of the bed as he tried to hug me.

You- "don't...please, I hate you..."

I couldn't stop sobbing so Absalom just ignored me and pulled me to his chest and embraced me like his life depended on it.

Absalom- "I'm sorry (y/n)...I didn't mean to hurt you...I just wanted to make sure everything was fine before I told you."

You- "You still lied to me..."

Absalom- "I didn't mean to hurt you (y/n)....I would never hurt the woman I love.."

I wanted to push him away but I felt as if I didn't have the strength to do so. His strong arms wrapped around me made me feel safe and secure. My mind was telling him to get off me, but my heart was telling him to hold me tighter. I just wanted this pain to go away, but I also wanted someone to relieve it.

You- "I hate you......"

Absalom just stayed quiet and held me a bit tighter the more I cried. His hold was almost therapeutic for me as I suddenly felt sleep wash over me. 

I could hear Absalom's steady heart beat as he kept my head close to his chest.  As the room got quieter, I felt Absalom slowly lie down onto the bed, carefully so he could keep his hold on me. I felt his hand rubbing against my back as I slowly drifted to sleep.

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(Absalom's POV)

I suddenly woke up when I felt the sun's rays hitting my face.

Oh yeah, I didn't close the damn curtains last night.

I suddenly sat up to stretch my bones when I suddenly noticed an empty space next to me.

I have never gotten out of my bed so quickly before in my life.

Me- "(Y/N)?!"

I quickly removed the covers from my bed, nothing.

I checked the bathroom, nothing.

When I was about to head out the door I noticed a note on my nightstand.

I quickly took it and unfolded it to read it.

I can't wait anymore, I'm going to find them myself. I'm sorry for leaving you, but my village comes first.

I deeply sighed and felt regret wash over me.

Me- "(Y/N)......"