rejected ~ g.b.d

part 1 ❂

lowercase intended

3 years ago.

solaris pov:
today was the day. today was when i'd ask him to be my boyfriend. he was lovely to me like a cool summer breeze colliding with rain (lol idk sksks). he was there for me whenever i need him. and oh boy was he handsome. his brown floppy hair, his brown eyes, his luscious lips. and oh man, his thick ass tho. he was the school's best football player and i. well i was the nerd, no one knew about me or neither where i was. i was pretty thankful for actually talking to the sex god himself. he was a close friend of mine and honestly i was glad we met after the game that occurred. he asked if i needed a ride and well i had no option. my sister bailed on me and i was left alone in the rain.  and there i see him, sitting at his so called "table" with his friends. i decide to text him.

Solaris; Grayson
hey gray? can we talk behind the school after?
ya sure, i guess. see you in 2?
perfect

i walk there only to see the god himself. i start to drool over him. "Solaris? you there?"
he asks me. "ya-i was-just-nevermind" i stuttered. "alright then." he chuckles. "what did you need to ask?" "gray, i was wondering if i could ya know be your girlfriend" i say saying the last part fast. "what did you say?" "i was wondering if i could be your girlfriend?"
the flashback played again and again in my head.
"what did you just say?" he laughs in my face. in my fucking face. "who are you? i get it. we're just FRIENDS. FRIENDS. if i repeat myself. i'd never date you. look at your face. all smushed up with acne, freckles, your rotten teeth and your fat ass. look at you. pssh, what a joke." he says. "Solaris, you made a great joke" he says walking away. this day was already getting worse for me. i decided to walk instead of talking the bus to avoid looking at his face.
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authors note: guys, you guys are perfect, no one tells you that you're not good looking, just know your beautiful and you shouldn't be let down by others. stay strong!