Now or Never (English ver)

part 1 ... taehyung

Taehyung … part 1

I was looking at the drunk boys and girls who were dancing together in the club ...I raised my hand to undo the button of my black coat...A couple of blond girls were gathered around me.True ...America has girls who are even willing to pay for me...I held my hand to the rim of the golden banister and leaned against my body a little ...

Hoseok came beside me and asked:

"Excuse me sir ..several people have come to the interview...Don't you want to see them?"

-I don't care who the person is...just doing his job well...

Choose the one who is the most worthy of all and after you have finished, bring him to me to confirm that person...

-Alright

Hoseok bowed and moved away...

The girl next to me lit a cigarette and put it between my lips...I started to smoke and I exhaled the smoke slowly through my lips...

The music was so loud that it seemed deafening...

It was dark and the place was decorated with highlights...

The dim light of the club was hearting my eyes...so I decided to go to my room .. Thegirls kept following me...

Why are they like this?They do not know anything but sticking to all of the boys...They begged me with their eyes to take one of them to my room with myself...I went into my room,leaving all the girls behind the door and I closed the door...

I sat down in my chair and I put out my cigarette in a crystal ashtray...

Suddenly the door of my room opened without permission and Namjoon came in angrily...

Hoseok was trying to explain but I raised my hand to stop him...

Namjoon said angrily:

-Are you crazy?

-what do you want ?Who has let you to come in?

Namjoon was looking at me angrily...Hoseok closed the door so that no one could see us...

- Hoseok ...you can go...

He went away.Namjoon raised his hand and asked:"did you gamble mother's necklace? "

I put my feet on the table and grinned: It was just an ugly antique...

Namjoon clenched his fist and stamped it on the table and said:"it was all we had from her."

-It doesn't matter...She's dead and all her things...

Namjoon gritted his teeth and yelled :Whenare you going to act like a human and give up your bad stuffs? Look at you .. You'vebecome such a scoundrel !No one likes you.. You're   gonna lose everything...

If you continue to gamble ,you'll become a homeless man...you lost jung su at gambling ...you got him killed...Whose next?...maybe me...!

-When I heard his name ,I lost my control.Istood up and I leaned over the table ...I held my face close to his face and I yelled:" Don't say his name"...

Namjoon frowned and said :Am I lying?Thatpoor boy is the victim of your dirty work...

I grabbed him by the collar and pulled him out of the back of my desk and I yelled:Idon't care that you're my brother...if you botter me much,I'll take you out of my way ...You know I don't care and I'll do it...

Namjoon was still angry and he looked at me ruefully and said:" You are so rebellious".

I let him go and I couldn't control myself cause my eyes were full of tears and only one blink was enough to weep... I seemed obstinate ,but in reality, I was a poor ,helpless boy who was going to die alone.. I'm the one who took everyone away from myself... I'm the one who has been banished from his family ...the one who killed his love... the one who treats his only brother badly ... the one who has left his old friends...

My only friend is just a big club that it's always full of drunk people...

booze and alcohol... cocaine,cigarette...gambling...these things have become my new friends...

I leaned against the table and lit another cigarette...I controlled my tears causethese disturbing tears don't have the right to weep...not now...