Young'n

Fuck a mattress, being on the floor
I’mma need ya to do a little more yea oh

The shower is overrated
Baby I'm anticipating tonight
Here's what we gon' do

I parted my lips singing along with Sevyn Streeter. I laid back on my bed withy feet on my cracked wall, that had lavender paint peeling off it. I was in deep thought. Because I just gave away my virginity.

Turn the bed upside down, flip me round
Gravity's left the building
I'll be on top, really I'll be on the bottom
'Cause we gon' be having sex on the ceiling

I bet your wondering was it as good as this song. Well to confirm your suspicious. It was. No we wasn't actually on a ceiling or hanging from shower rods like Mimi ass. But it was beyond better.

Take me higher, take me higher boy
Switch it up one time, 180, drive me crazy
Baby we gon' have sex on ceiling

Higher is exactly what he did. I never felt anything like it. Waiting 18 years was definitely worth it. To have my crush of 6 years give me mind blowing orgasm was crazy.

I don't never ever wanna come down boy
I'mma have you standing up when I'm around boy
So whenever you get that feeling
Baby we gon' have sex on the ceiling

Carson Blackman. Ugh! not even Trey Song could compare. Well at least that's what I thought. He was a year older than me, that was already a turn on. Captain of the football and basketball team. And baby was just that nigga!

Nothing beneath us but the carpet
Maybe some furniture, let's get it started

Boy my body is orthopedic
Victoria, gave me the secret
And I've been saving it for you

Yes! I, me! Khamorah Alana Cherry saved herself for Carson. Why you might ask? Well to tell yah the truth. I fell in love with him. From a distance. When we made love it just drew me deeper. My girl China though he was just going to hit and quit.
That he only have me attention because he wanted the impossible. Soon as he got it I was just another random at Westchester High that he knocked off.

And she was right.....

Want you to take me up, up, up, up
I'm so tired of dropping it low
To the top don't stop, let's go

Even though his sex had me feeling in top of the world. His motive and demeanor made me feel lower than a side chick with wifey hand me down red bottoms. One more semester in high school, and I'm constantly reminded of the decision I made. Even though nobodies knows I feel like people are laughing and pointing. He would even see me in the hall way and hug me from the back and maybe if I'm lucky kiss my cheek. Yes he semi played me to the left. Fact remain the love I have for him is real. So it didn't just fade away.

Tooted and booted, I've been hit by cupid
I'm being recruited
I'm ready for more
I'm ready for war
Hold your position
Load up ammunition
I won't fail this mission
Cause baby I'm yours, ohh

I caught the single tear as Jhene Aiko played. This song is dope as fuxk. And makes me love Carson even more. Only person I told about my rendezvous with Carson is my mother.  She always says it will wear off. Im just a young'n who thinks im in love. You thought I was gon say China? Nah, China the homie and all. but she is judgemental and like the rest a small parts that she will never admit to wants Carson. The fact that her and I walk through the hall and he comes hugs me out the blue makes her salty.

Cause where I'm from
We live by the love
Die by the love
We live for the love
Die for the love
Yeah I live for your love
Die for your love
Love

I know boo koo bitches will love for him tondo that. But not me. That's why I haven't been entertaining his big head ass. See Carson realize im far from ugly. His boys did too. To be a baddie, beautiful, and a good girl had you on the most wanted radar. He wanted me to himself but didn't want to do what was required to have me. So he gets the cold shoulder.

Carson has a temper that only I can subside so he's not at all happy about that. especially since i stop having sex with him.

I'm always going to be his though. Forever his young'n.

Now many men
Many, many, many, many men
Wish death upon me
Have mercy on me
Cause I'm just a prisoner of your army of one
But I'll fight till the death or until your heart is won

Cause where I'm from
We live for the love
Die for the love
Yeah
We live by the love
Die by the love
Yeah
I live for your love
Die for your love
Love