Close As Strangers

Acceptance

It was after 11 when we got home and I headed to bed, even though I didn't work for a few days. I changed into my jammies and laid in bed thinking about Calum. Things used to be great, but then they weren't so nice. He was gone a lot and I had school. When I was in high school, there wasn't a day that went by that Cal and I weren't together all the time. My teachers called it the honeymoon phase, and I guess they were right. I guess nobody really likes to admit that they're wrong, but sometimes you have to. To be completely honest, I'm really not okay, but I should've see this coming. He was short with me before he left and it got worse after that. Maybe it was all the time we spent together when we were younger, and he just got sick of me. Maybe it was because I called him all the time and woke him up when I missed him. Maybe it was because I gained weight after graduation because I was stressed and he thought I wasn't pretty anymore. It could be a combination, or it could be none of that. It could be that he just fell out of love with me. I tend to overthink everything and maybe he got tired of me being insecure about us. But maybe, he just needs time. I have to accept it, no matter how much it hurts.