When BigHit decide to try their new method of training with the worlds biggest boy band, y/n finds himself stuck in a dorm with 7 handsome men. They aim to mentor the boy and bring him to the standard BigHit wants, He becomes close with the members...
Yoongi told me that he was having trouble thinking of lyrics for a track he already had, after showing me the track it wasn't hard for me to think of lyrics for it. The beat was slow but heavy and even the beat alone gave off emotion so i figured the lyrics should do the same. After being in silence for about 5 minutes i went over to my desk and grabbed a notebook out.
It was almost completely full on songs I've written in the past and some of the songs even had Polaroids and printed photos on the pages to show the inspiration i had behind the song. While the songs may not be about what is in the photo, the photo's would remind me of things that would inspire them.
After looking through the book i found the page i was looking for, the first thing i saw on the page was a photo of me and my ex, even though the photo was nice and it looked happy, i knew it wasn't.
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At this point i didn't notice Yoongi looking at the book as well while i was reading the lyrics, seeing as im quite a quick reader it didn't take me long before i finished the first two pages and went on to the third page of the same song, which had another photo but this time this one wasn't as happy looking.
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It was a photo of me after our breakup, at that point i relied on alcohol to keep me going and it was the only thing that made me happy at that point, the only time id feel anything was when i was drunk. I liked it that way.
While these memories were sad to think about, it fit the beat and tone of the song. I started playing out the lyrics in my head in how i'd adjust them and make them work with the beat until Yoongi spoke up.
"is that you're brother?"
for a moment i was confused until i realised that this song was written in English because i didn't want anyone around me to read it as it was a very personal song.
"uh no, its my ex boyfriend"
"boyfriend?"
"yeah, im gay"
"okay, whats the song about?"
when he asked this, i made myself slightly more comfortable in order to tell him a shortened version of what happened.
"soooo, pretty much we were dating for about 2 years, i thought i was in love with him but thinking about it now i don't think i was, i don't think i've ever really felt real love in the way people describe it. Anyways one day he said he wanted to talk so i kind of assumed he was breaking up with me, but then he hit me with some thing a lot bigger than just a break up. He told me that he's been seeing a woman for about a year now and not only that but he got her pregnant and left me to go live with her"
Yoongi looked somewhat shocked at what i said, most people are though.
"damn, what an asshole"
"yeah, theirs a lot more around it but that's just like the main story"
he nodded in contentment and i started to translate the song into Korean so Yoongi could understand it. After i did, Yoongi started to read it and got the main gist of the song. After about half an hour of fixing things up, writing new lyrics and making things work, We decided to go to the studio to work better and to possibly record.
It was now 3 am and Yoongi and I were just leaving the studio, we finished the song to our liking and went home. The dorm was a short walk from where the studio was so we just walked there. As soon as we got back to the dorms we didn't even make it to our bedroom before passing out on the couch together.
I woke up about an hour later from a nightmare that i typically get when i finish a song im proud of, at this point i was used to this nightmare as i used to have hundreds of songs that i was proud of making, meaning I've had this nightmare hundreds of times. Although this time it was different, It was a lot more realistic this time which made the whole thing a lot more terrifying. As i woke up i could feel myself drenched in sweat, i felt arms around me and my heart started beating even faster as i couldn't see anything. I thought that the person from the nightmare had come and had finally gotten me and i started struggling until i heard a voice that wasn't the person in my nightmare's.
"whats wrong y/n are you okay?"
the voice said with worry laced in his words, It was Yoongi, i was okay. I started settling down after i realised who it was.
"sorry hyung, i just had a nightmare and didn't know who you were for a second, sorry"
i said while staring to stand up but he grabbed my hand,
"it's okay y/n, stay with me, ill protect you"
he said in his groggy tired voice, i had a huge smile on my face but luckily it was dark so he couldn't see it and i went back over to him. After getting comfortable with Yoongi he wrapped his arms around my waist and i wrapped mine around his neck, our noses were touching and i couldn't tell if he was sleeping or awake until he pressed his forehead against mine. He didn't have to say anything but i knew what that meant, it was his way of saying that he's here for me, that he will protect me. I've never felt this and don't know how i knew that's what he meant but some thing in my heart and my head made me feel as if that's what he meant, he made me feel safe. He started tracing circles on my back as we both fell asleep.
