I just want to freeze. I'm alone with my thoughts again and now insanity takes over. You see I'm no emo, goth or an outwardly expressing black dresser endorsing suicide. I'm what you call average, one friend. An only child. A fairly large room with 4 pink walls.I'm what they call a "girl". Personally I don't get the gender divide but god bleeds out the evil in us every month so I get it. But back to my condescending mood. My name is Topaz. Topaz-king Brooke's and I just found out My bestie is moving schools. Far, Far away. Almost as far as far far away in Shrek. Ah, shrek. Shrek was before it's time.
How will I leave Ally? She's the only person I could stand in this world of mindless uncultured swines. I mean who hasn't read the hunger games? WHO?!?. She's the only person that genuinely gets me. We have the same twisted sense of humour and interests . I know it sounds weird but she's genuinely my world. We just get eachother but what can you do? Nothing.
(Welcome into the mind of a 16 year old teenager. Endless thoughts colliding together to form a supernova of uncertainty and moodswings.)
I sat up slowly keeping milo close to my chest. My childhood teddy. When I was younger if I left him for one minute I swear my whole world fell apart, it was like I had been sucked into a rift of sadness. He is my world. After years of dragging him along the floors of various places , he came to resemble what seemed to be an inside of a dumpster truck. My mother had reached her limit so she hid him in the one place I was terrified of. The laundry room. My mom acted like she didn't know where he was and As a 4 year old I swear I thought I had felt pure depression. I know, I'm dramatic. But milo was squeaky clean and smelt of unicorns and sunshine so it was a win win for me. He's been here for the majority of my life. He was a gift from my father when I was two. He left my mother and filed for divorce. That's all I know, my mom doesn't like talking about it. He lives in California and my mother in Florida. Talk about a long distance relationship. But milo is my father when I'm not with him, maybe that's why he was so sacred to me.
I believe I'm dramatic, From the inside. My head is what you call an internal theatre. It's like a show in there, screen 2 opening for incoming scenario that will never happen! And now I wished moving schools was one of them.
Reluctantly, I dragged my self off my bed. The comfy haven I came too after a long hard day of being a teenager. Wiping the wet excess emotion off my face I stumbled to the mirror.
"Wow" I sighed. I really was a hot mess. My Brunette curls were now a bush of nothingness. My once green eyes are now surrounded by a sea of red. My lips swollen and puffy along side my cheeks. Oh yeah and I forgot snot. Lots and lots of snot. All this for Ally. Wow I really do love that girl.
*ping*
I jolted to my phone wishing, praying it was ally calling off the moving. "By the way Topaz its fine I'm not moving my mom is staying"
But it was just a reminder that said "shave your legs you wear wolf" yeah thanks topaz. With the dream of staying in Florida slowly deflated so did my morality.
I hoped in the shower to get rid of all the residue of sadness off my face. Deep conditioning my hair, I realised how much work curly hair is. Damn mom why did you have to burden me. Sure it looks pretty but it is ONE HELL OF A WORKOUT.
Alessia Cara "trust my lonely" was playing my my emotions were slowly stabilising. I proceeded to shave my legs, and everything actually. I had the time and the patience today so why not? I sat in deep thought as the hot water ran over my head, cascading down my shoulders slowing entering the whirlpool at the drain. I followed the pattern, analysing the way it moved, when my song suddenly changed. Ugh now I have to make an effort? This is frustrating. As I went to reach my phone that was placed on the sink, My foot slipped on the soap. And I remember a blanket of emptiness enveloping me. I blacked out.
A sharp piercing pain shot through the back of my head to the front. Light slowly started to trickle into my eyes as I rubbed my head wondering where I was. Juding by the unicorn covers im in my bed. I look down,
please be naked please be naked. I wished.....
OH NO IM CLOTHED. WHO CLOTHED ME ?
I grabbed a baseball bat I won at a baseball tournament aged 9. I beat Tyler that day I was so proud.
Suddenly there was rustling downstairs in the kitchen. Topaz TOPAZ someone's here I thought. Blood rushed to my face as my heart pounded in my chest. Am I going to die? Oh please god what do I do ? I frantically grab my phone and call my mother. No signal. Of course she's probably in China by now. Ally. ALLY ILL CALL ALLY. I try Ally. she's on another call. Great ally the one time I GENUINELY NEED YOU. Slowly I move down the stairs avoiding the one stair that creeks loader then an old Victorian house . Breath topaz, breath it's okay. I slowly make out a tall figure, jet black hair, leaning into our fridge and eating? EATING MY BROWNIES? My blood boiled, thoes were MINE.
I charged at him with the baseball but he turned around and grabbed it. How in the world? Never mind WHO IS THIS PIECE OF S***? I take a look at his face, his eyes were a stormy blue, placed within an almond shape. His jaw line resembled that a knife in that it was so sharp I though I could cut myself. His lips were plump and red. They looked appetising. He looked 6'1 compared to my 5'5 it was ridiculous to look up. I won't give him the power over me. His olive skin looked so good. Is it me or the hormones. Wait topaz snap out of it THIS IS AN INTRUDER.
"WHAT THE F*** ARE YOU DOING IN MY HOUSE" edging closer and closer with my bat.
"Calm down mamicita your mom knows me, her mom and my mom are besties. We just moved in next door."
Mamicita? Okay topaz relax we can get through this, just tell downstairs to relax and stop with the water works. Goodness. Don't be stupid he might KILL YOU. Smh, woman honestly.
"I didn't ask you why you moved. I asked you WHY ARE YOU IN MY HOUSE " I screamed, I mean I think I looked threatening.
He chucked a bit, his eyes barely open "awh mami you're so fiesty, how do you look so cute doing that. Especially in your unicorn pyjamas. Nice sheets by the way"
Then it dawned on me, HE DRESSED ME. This beautiful stranger SAW ME NAKED. No ones ever seen me naked in my life, well apart from my parents when I was a baby. My hand trembling at the thought of his hands on my body, and not in a good way. My breath became heavier as I began to see red. Without any hesitation I launched at him
"YOU CHANGED ME, YOU TOOK ADAVNTAGE, WHAT DID YOU DO"
I gave him a swift hit to the shins and he grunted in pain. Angrily he snached the bat out of my hand.
"Are you crazy? I didn't change you damn it. It was my sister!"
He yelled Pointing the bat in my face.
"Your mom gave my mom extra keys to look after the house and check on you. My mom told my sister to come over and say hello, she was ringing for 1/2 an hour before coming in it find you unconscious in the bath tub"
Suddenly a wave of embarrassment surged over me. Well topaz think of something so you don't look stupid. My sheets. MY SHEETS. How does he know what my sheets look like?
"Uh um" I stammered
how do you know what my sheets look like"
He chucked "because my sister asked me to get the first aid kit from our house as she didn't want to alarm your mom. Hence the bandage"
I feel the top of my head to find a bandage wrapped around my forehead. This feels like a Wattpad novel I must say.
"Well I am a gentle man after all, i wouldn't see a woman naked before I know her name"
I doubt that, he looks like a guy with a body count of about 1000 aged 17.
"My names topaz and you?"
"My name is Damien. Damien Ares"
Suddenly There was a knock at the door. Through the Mail box Tyler shouted "Topaz it's me Tyler". I haven't spoken to him in years. With this Damien here it doesn't look good...
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I hope to upload every Monday 💕 I hope you like it so far :)'
Btw you'll find topaz real relatable. She's not your average wattpad damsel in destress.
