Pushed Away. Grayson Dolan.

Goodbye // #3

TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️
SUICIDE ATTEMPT

I locked myself in me and Graysons shared bedroom. I know Ethan and Grayson stoped fighting because they were outside of the door banging on it and trying to get me to come out. I couldn't take any more of this pain. Being in love with Grayson while he continued to treat me like dirt and then being with Ethan at the same time. It was all to much.

I went into my nightstand and pulled out my depression pills and opened the bottle. I debated on telling the boys but decided if I told them goodbye they would try to stop me. I downed the whole bottle of pills and laid down on the bed. I could hear the boys muffled voices outside of the door trying to talk to me but I stopped listening to them and focused on drifting off to sleep.

"Open the door please! I'm so sorry baby!" grayson cried.

"don't worry about it anymore. it will be over soon." I mindlessly mumbled.

"Braelyn what are you talking about?" Ethan shouted from outside of the door.

*Graysons pov.*

"Braelyn what are you talking about?" Ethan said as confused as i was.

we were on the other side of me and braelyns locked bedroom door. she said something about it all being over soon. I was really confused because she had never been depressed or suicidal before so i didn't understand.

"Brae are you okay?" I shouted. we stopped getting responses.

"bro we have to get in there now." Ethan said to me.

After a few minutes of trying really hard to knock the door down we finally broke the lock and got the door open. Braelyn was laying on our bed asleep. next to her on the nightstand was a bottle. Ethan picked it up and read it.

"She overdosed!!" Ethan shouted.

I collapsed onto the bed and started shaking her awake but she wouldn't wake up. "Call the ambulance!!"

Ethan got his phone out of his pocket and dialed 911.
I was crying. I was confused. But most of all I was angry at myself. How did I not see what was happening between Ethan and my girlfriend. How did I not see that how I was treating her was wrong. She groaned a slightly opened her eyes before getting up fast and running to the bathroom and i followed her and watched her puke up all of the pills she swallowed. she had never really been good at swallowing pills. I held her frail body in my arms after she got done throwing up. we sat on the bathroom floor as ethan walked in and told us that since she threw up the pills we should still take her in to get checked out but they didn't need to come and pick her up in an ambulance. Me and her were both crying and i felt so so bad.

* Braelyns pov*

after i got done throwing up the pills Ethan walked into the bathroom and told me and grayson that they should bring me in get checked out but i didn't need to be picked up by the ambulance. i was so angry and sad that i threw up the pills so fast. grayson was sitting on the bathroom floor with me. holding me in his arms trying to comfort me but it felt more like him being able to hold me was comforting him more than it was comforting me. he was a mess. i was okay.