I hope my child never has to go through the hurt & pain I did while trying to find and give love. & I hope my baby knows their worth so that they'll walk away from situations that no longer benefit them. I hope my baby knows when enough is enough. & that no matter what a person says, their actions are always what separates the lies from the truth. I hope my child knows that my door is always open for them to come and sit in silence or rant for hours when they feel like the worlds crumbling down on them and they just need reassurance that they are not alone. I hope my baby doesn't get to know or let alone feel heartbreak... and if they do I hope they know there's a spot in my bed at 2AM when their trying to cry themselves to sleep at night and their thoughts have wondered to that dark place that makes you question why "you weren't good enough". and I hope they'll know that it's okay rebuild your home in another when the first home you seem to have built has had a tornado rip through. It's okay to rebuild... I'll just tell them to make sure the foundation is stronger. And I'll hold my child like God held me in my darkest moments. And I'll leave my door unlocked so they can crawl into my bed at 2AM when their deepest thoughts are trying to get them just so I can hold them like my mother did for me. And I'll hold their hand during church when I know their at a breaking point and I'll take them to the alter and rain down prayers and blessing on them like my big sister did for me. And I'll take them out on random days and tell them about how life for me was filled with so much hurt but even more love that covered the hurt and healed all my wounds like my daddy did. And I'll lay around you on your good days and talk to you about things that are going on in the world and talk about food like my baby sisters did. And I'll threaten to ruin someone's life with all the anger in me bc I know you don't deserve it just like my big brothers did... and I'll do it all bc I just want you to have what I did.... all the love and support I did.
