Suicide and love

The boy

I get to school and meet up with friends, I lock eyes with the hottest guy in school and he smirks,
I look down to the floor trying to hide my redend face.

He walk up to me and says "Hey your Rachel right?"

"I.....um, I am, and your Josh, right ?" I asked him looking down at the florr trying to hide my blushing face

"Ya I am" before I could say anything else April came up to me and dragged me away "Apirl !?!" I said to her while wining

"So I see you talking to Josh?!?!" she said to me looking excited and completely ignoring my question

"So?!"... "yes I was but you ruined it" I said looking at her with a disappointed face. "I don't care if I ruined it spill the tea" her eyes looked like they were about to pop out of her head "Tell me!!" She said with the biggest smile on her face.

"He just said hi and I said hi back, and we exchanged names, that's all"

"Well did he go up to you?" 

"Ya he did"

"Ooooo i think someone's got a boyfriend"  "shut up I don't even like him" I bit my lip trying not to blush.

"Youuu doo likeee himm,  You can't lie to me, I'm your best friend I know when your lying" she said with the biggest smile on her face while poking me.
And she was right she did know when I was lying

"Fine I do like him, I mean he's the hottest guy in school"

"Then ask him out" she said, still poking me "I can't ask him out, I'm not his type and what if I get rejected?"

She looked at me with a duhh face "He likes  you too, why do you think he came up to you? He doesn't just go up to any girl!!"

She did have a point there. What if he did like me? What if I did have a chance with him? That would make me so happy.

She gave me a hug and I flinched feeling the pain in my wrist.
She looked at me with a confused face "what's wrong?" She asked "nothing" I said pulling my selves down more than they already were.

She knew what I was up to and I couldn't hide it.

She looked down at my wrist and said "pull your sleeves up, I want to see"
I refused to pull them up so she did it for me. She managed to pull them up and her eyes widened at the sight of cuts on my wrist.

She looked so dissapointed I'm me "Why?" She said with tear filled eyes. I quickly pulled them down and looked up at her then looked down to the floor again "because......" I said then paused "Because what?" She said making me look at her
"because.... I don't know"

She wiped the tears from her eyes and put on a smile when she saw our group of friends walking up to us "Hey guys" one of them said "Hey" we both said at the same time.

They talked on the way to class but I heard nothing, I was lost in my own thoughts.

The bell rang snapping me out of the trans i was in, I said bye to the guys and I headed off to claas.

So  I've just come up with this at the top of my head .
Hope you like it and hope you like my book

What do you think will happen between her and the boy
Will they end up dating
Ahhh so many questions keep reading to find out more

And I'm up for any suggestions
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