SILENT

Chapter 1: The beginning

SILENT...

It's so cold i could feel my teeth clattering against my bottom jaw. The many blankets layered across my frail body did nothing to protect me from the cold, even if it was only the air conditioning. I was too afraid to move, too weak to even swallow my saliva that barely covered my pale tongue. I couldn't sleep at all, I was never able to sleep after...HE hurt me...after that the night mares continued on. Damn you...

I'm Lay, i'm a 16 year old female...and this is basically the story of my life. Let's start this whole scenario at the beginning. 

2 years before...

I remember the phone call...that Tuesday morning as i was getting ready for school i walked into the kitchen to see my family getting ready for work and school, my mothers phone was ringing from her bag yet too busy doing my sisters hair she asked for me to answer it. It was my uncle?

Lay: "Hey uncle Derick, whats wrong why are you crying?"

uncle Derick: "Please put your mother on the phone..."

I walked up to my mother and handed her the phone, i started to get anxious as i looked around and saw my family staring at mum waiting to see what the problem was. We heard her mumble a few words then she went silent...

Mother (Kathrine): "WHAT?? NO NO NO!!!"

my father ran to her embracing her asking whats wrong..

Father (Daniel): "whats wrong? what happened?"

Mother (Kathrine): "DAD'S DEAD DAD'S DEAD!!!"

My fathers face went blue and my mother fell into a ball of tears and screams as my father held her so tightly. My heart sank to my stomach and my face went cold as tears were running on their own down my not so warm cheeks, i looked around and saw my five younger siblings wide eyed and stiff. I wasted no time and ran out of the house in tears and into cold weather i went, i didn't believe it at first but as i got school with puffs and sweat realization hit me. My grandfather...was actually gone..

As my friends got off their bus in front of the school  i ran towards them, i stopped and my face was blank with no emotion as tears fell without my control. 

Friend 1(Jordan): "Lay whats wrong what happened to you??"

Friend 2(Emily): "Please Lay what happened?"

Lay: "Pa, hes gone...he passed this morning"

As i said those words i collapsed on the ground, unable to get up i was so broken. He was everything to my family, he was everything to me. Why him?..why now?..

That morning changed everything from then on, it changed me somehow. A few days later i was less talkative and very moody. An empty hole in my heart was clearly present, this wasn't like my normal self and my friends were worrying. Things started to...change. I was in class the week after he passed and was doing my math's work as usual until i started to get a rough feeling in my chest, like my lungs were getting smaller and less air was flowing through me, my head started to spin and my legs were shaking, everything seemed to get louder and louder and the room was closing in on me. My teacher noticed this and said i should leave the classroom for a drink of water and fresh air, i immediately followed her instructions and left my classroom. The second i was outside i sat down and held my head down.

Lay: "What the fuck is wrong with me??why was i acting like that"

All of a sudden my Grandpa came into my head and all these bad thoughts rushed into my mind and i couldn't understand what was happening, my breathing picked up and before i knew it i was hyperventilating and shaking. I was so scared this has never happened before, so many thoughts went through my head it was over whelming to the point i couldn't breathe and my vision became dark, suddenly everything went black...

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Your flying a plane with no co-pilot,

A scavenger looking for spare parts,

A pirate lost in the open sea, searching for something to fill that heart

But there are clouds blocking your view,

This building has already been stripped clean,

Can't see land from miles on end,

Searching for that one thing,

The feeling of being loved,

The feeling of being cared for, 

The feeling of being trusted,

The feeling of being an open door,

Now that you've found your pilot,

Found the required parts,

Seeing land covered in treasure,

I want you to know that this is the start...

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Sorry it's short, got  little emotional half way.