I woke up, alone... no one was around and not a single trace of him was in the house. I sigh and place my hand on my face. I wanted to thank him for helping me feel better but he was gone before i could.
Soon my phone begins ringing i check the number to see its Jack, or at least i hoped Anti didnt steal Jack's phone.
"Hello?" I say softly
"Hey!" Jacks bouncy voice shouts through the phone, "how about that coffee date you promised me" he says happily
"What?" I ask confused
"Well you agreed to have coffee with me so i wanted to make sure you were coming since we're meeting up in an hour" Jack said happily
"Uh y-yea what coffee shop was it?" I ask
"Jamie's, don't you remember?" He says
"Yea sorry im just a little loopy since i just woke up" i lie
"Well I'll let you get ready see you soon!" He says happily before he hangs up
Confused i quickly look at the date it was the day when i first went to the coffee shop with Jack... which was also the night we....
I get ready deciding if this was meant to be a rewind of everything then i should wear and look the same as i did before
That day happened so similar to the last but i noticed a few differences, like our conversation we didnt speak about youtube or our jobs we spoke about where we want to end up in life, we weren't that old but i tried not to speak to much on the topic, until Jack kept begging for the answer
"I dont know" i answer truthfully
"What do you mean?" He says confused
"Im a game designer and the whole world wants me to make another game when i dont know what to make.... life is confusing to me, everyone has these big hopes and dreams and i have them too.... the only thing is... i dont think I'll live long enough to make them" i say with a shrug
Jack is silent for a moment as if he's studying me trying to figure out why my answer was so depressing, "thats the whole point in have those dreams though right? To push through life so one day you can make it" he says with a smile
"No thats not it... im not depressed or suicidal i just.... most people in my family die at a young age and i guess i just never thought about those dreams coming true because i dont want to get my hopes up if i might get hit by a bus tomorrow" i say with a shrug
"I mean you have a point but why worry about such silly things when you can go out and live your dreams" he says with a smile
"I dont mean to sound like such a downer...but... everyone can picture their perfect future... everyone except for me i cant picture anything" i say with a shrug, "look im sorry for being such a downer, i should go" i say as i stand up and walk out
"Wait wait!" Jack calls out chasing after me, "please let me walk you home so we can talk, i dont want our time to end like this"
I sigh, "i dont need someone to walk me home!" I say beginning to get frustrated
"Please... i cant explain it i just feel like i need to go with you, like something inside me is screaming at me" he says softly
I look around seeing as though the streets were dead i sigh and grab Jack by the shirt, "look here Anti i dont know what game you're trying to play but im done!" I growl quietly staring daggers into his soul
His eyes fill with fear as he freezes, "h-how do you know that name!" He says panicking
I chuckle, "fine, walk with me and I'll jog your memory you sick bastard" i growl grabbing his wrist and dragging him with me
"You cant lie to me and tell me you're just the innocent guy who was forced to live with the demon, i wont buy it again" i start once we're out of town, "ya know i wanted to thank you for helping me after i had my huge break down, but when i wake up, you're gone and time has gone backwards! Theres no way you dont remember any of what you did to Jack and I!" I growl at him
"What? What are you talking about what do you mean? What did he do to you or me" the boy i could neither tell was Anti or Jack
I chuckle softly and smile, "you can't pretend to have forgotten the fact that you tortured us, oh and all the shit you did to make sure we were miserable" i say clenching my fists
"P-please how do you even know about Anti" the man says but from the shaking and unstableness in his voice and the terrified look in his eyes, i knew this was Jack
"How do you not remember any of it!" I yell panicking, "theres no way it was just some weird dream! Before i met you on that coffee date i had never met you, i mean i knew you were a youtuber but that's because i always heard people talk about you I've never watched a single video! Theres no way that was some crazy dream and had all the details correct!" I continue to yell
Jack looks at me worried
"Last time you found out i was the very Y/n L/n who built 226: the broken vessle which you had said was one of the best series on your channel! You even told me how you lived in Athlone and how you come down here to visit your family as often as possible! Not to mention when you saw me after Anti had forced himself into my life you wanted to talk to him to help me get rid of him and the moment you walked in he knew about it and.... and he tortured us for hours and..... he...." i begin to choke up replaying the memories of holding the knife as i tore into Jack's flesh i shut my eyes tightly, "i had managed to get free of the bindings.... and...... and so I immediately started patching up both of our wounds but Anti walked in while i was trying to get your bindings off... so... i grabbed the knife that i managed to free myself with... and.... he...." i pause and cover my mouth
Jack merely listens to me the entire time but fear in his eyes, "what... what did he do" he asks worried
"He must have thought i was gonna hurt you because.... he.... grabbed my hand... and.... made... made...... he made me stab you and..... i......" i stop unable to relive the memories anymore. I pause realizing i stall have the scars, "wait wait!!" I blurt out, "look! I still have the scars!" I yell pointing to the scar on my hand and the ones on my forearms, "th-there should be a scar on your upper right thigh thats where he had stabbed you after he promised he wouldnt hurt me.... until..... welll until i made a deal" i point to his thigh my hands shaking as memories pour in. I then remember the one scar I desperately didnt want to tell the story of, "a-and this one! I remember this one this was after i made a deal with him to not hurt you!" I say slightly revealing the thin long scar along my collar bone there was another, but it was just a patch and no longer the original thing so there was no point in showing it.
She just had to bring up what i had done she just couldnt let go. I sigh knowing she would be upset with me if she found out but i take her back once again. If my little angel revealed herself she would be killed but its not like she was in a different timeline. No i was sitting right next to her sleeping form, we were in another dimension and she wasnt awake yet so i used her dreams as a way to think she had gone back in time or everything was just a dream for extra protection until she woke up
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Lonely lovers (Antisepticeye x Reader)
FanficShe was always alone.... she never had friends she barely knew what it was like to love someone.... she was perfect.... but so broken.... lost.... À̴̱͝L̜̳ͮ̉O̴̰̝̞̽̄͊͟ͅÑ͖̖̲̐̒͗E̷͔̎͠͠͝ͅ she never deserved to be neglected, and yet she was. Before her a...
