I wish to dream, dream only of you

Jimin was laying in a hospital bed. The bright white lights were making his already pale skin look even lighter, his lips were pursed and his eyes were focused on his hand that was curled up on his lap.

A soft sigh, pulled Jimin from his thoughts and he looked to his right where Jungkook was sitting, his head down, hair messy and eyes watering even though it was clear that he was trying hard to hold back the tears

"Please don't cry," Jimin said, offering a weak smile in Jungkook's direction "You're going to die Jimin, you're letting yourself die" came the other boy's response "I know that" Jimin insisted.

"I've always wondered what death was like. Kookie do you think its like falling asleep? Will, it is just be dark or will I dream?" Jimin asked in a small voice, his hand reaching out to brush over Jungkook's hand, which was clenched into a fist, "I don't want you to go" Jungkook said through a shaky breath "I know you don't, but Kookie do you want to know a secret?" He asked.

Jungkook bit his lip and shrugged "Not the best time for secrets" he muttered as a few tears finally slipped down his cheeks only to be hurriedly wiped away.

"Well, I'm going to tell you anyway," Jimin said with a light laugh that did not suit the situation at all.

"I hope that death is like sleeping so that I can dream, and I'll only dream about you" he said.

After he said that Jungkook seemed to break, his face crumbled and a sob shook his shoulders "I don't want you to dream about me because I want you here, I want you to laugh so hard that I need to stop you from falling over, I want you to smile, I want you to hug me, I want you to live" he choked out.

"Why can't you just stay with me?" He asked through a sob. "Because I've gotten to a point where I can't handle this anymore" Jimin explained in a calming tone "I'll die soon anyway, but this way it won't be so painful, this way it will happen quickly, this way is better"

"It might be less painful for you, but it's just as painful for me if you were dying the real way" Jungkook snapped.

"Jungkookie, please don't be mad at me, not now" Jimin begged softly "I can't handle you being mad" he added in a whisper and gently grabbed onto Jungkook's hand just as the door opened and a doctor walked in.

Jungkook rapidly blinked and nodded "I'm not mad, I promise" he assured and looked up at the doctor with a sad expression.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" Asked the doctor in a solemn voice, Jimin nodded and smiled softly "I'm sure" he said and for the first time his voice shook.

"Finish saying your goodbyes and I'll be back soon" he said before walking out of the room, once again leaving Jimin and Jungkook alone.

"Are you scared?" Jungkook asked and Jimin slowly shook his head "no I'm not" he said.

"I love you, more than anything Jimin" came Jungkook's voice again and Jimin smiled "I love you more" he teased, "we are not getting into this right now" Jungkook scolded through a watery smile.

"I'll still love you" Jungkook whispered and Jimin nodded "I know and I'll still love you too"

Their conversation was cut off when the doctor walked back in only this time he had a nurse beside him "would you like to have this procedure alone?" He asked and Jimin quickly shook his head "No, Jungkookie can stay. I want him to stay"

The doctor nodded and walked over to Jimin "again I need to ask, are you sure?" He questioned and once again Jimin nodded "yes, I'm ready," he said.

"Alright, this will be painless" the doctor assured as he inserted a needle into Jimin's arm and injected the shot.

Almost instantly Jimin started to fell slightly drowsy so he reached out and took Jungkook's hand "please don't let go" he whispered and Jungkook nodded.

Suddenly Jimin started to cry softly "I lied, Kookie I lied I'm scared, because what if there isn't anything? What if it's just dark? You know I'm scared of the dark" he voice was weak and filled with fear.

Jungkook bit his lip and shook his head "no, no you'll be dreaming. Remember Jimin, you'll be dreaming about me" he whispered into his boyfriend's ear.

"But what if I don't dream? Kookie what if there's nothing?" He asked through a silent sob.

"There won't be nothing" Jungkook's voice was getting farther and farther away as Jimin's eyes grew heavy "you don't know that, you can't know that" Jimin quietly protested.

"Wherever you are going Jimin I promise it won't be empty because wherever you are there's light and happiness, and if you when you get there, it's just dark I promise it won't be for long because you will make it bright, you will create your own world and live there until I come to see you" Jungkook's voice was almost gone when he switched from talking too quietly singing.

Jimin felt a faint smile make it's way onto his lips as his vision complete faded and Jungkook's hand started to brush through his hair.

Yes. This was good, he was going away, he was going to dream, dream only of Jungkook and how much he loved him.

I am so sorry I haven't updated my other story, life has been hectic and I didn't have the motivation, but Im working on an update.