Every night I wake and tremble with terror. It won't stop calling my name. It won't leave me alone, I never get a break. It followed me at school, I could feel it in the hallway. It's everywhere and i can't shake it. Nobody saw what I saw, no matter how hard I begged and pleaded for them to look at what i was seeing. Soon after that people started spreading rumors, calling me crazy, even my parents. That's how I ended up here in this insane asylum. Days go by slow, and if not that, even slower. Doctors tried to diagnose me but nothing helped, it's all pointless. Sometimes i feel like i'm stuck and nothing or no one can save me. Just me, the 'monster', and this painful white room. Never in my life would i think i'd be here, never. Day by day my hopes and dreams go on without me, they prance in the field where life goes on, and i'm stuck here where time feels frozen. I'm tired of it. Another day i have to stay here is another day i can't take back. What have i been doing this whole time? i ve been sitting here moping when i could be breaking free. Many consequences come with breaking out but i just can't live like this anymore.
The nights I lay wake are the nights i've been planning my escape, today is the day. I'm going to pretend I've fell physically ill, once they come and take me to the clinic i will wait for the nurse to leave and make my escape. No telling if it will work but persistence is key. My acting skills are anything but great, but the nurse has left. God i can smell the fresh air, I can feel a life I used to call mine coming back to me. I made a run for it, nothing stopped me. Every corner i turned i felt more and more free. Until it stopped, i stopped. This time actually feeling physically ill. There it was. The monster, my monster. Why am i not able to move? It can't be shock, i've seen this monster too many times to count. It's almost as if its controlling me but this time its controlling every bone and muscle in my body.
It wasn't long until the guards came for me. They put me in solitary confinement, which is no upgrade from my original room. Unfortunately that wasn't the only punishment. Tomorrow, I will be sent to the electrocution room where they'll try to shock the crazy out of me. I was so close.
A life i thought id get back, will soon be over.
First it was 60 watts, then 100 watts, 500 watts came next and yet they still didn't think it was good enough. I sat in suffer for hours. Getting more brain dead with every push of a button or crank of a lever. My life flashed before my eyes over and over again, each time with a new memory. Then it all started to blur, everything went blank. All of the sudden i felt like i was with myself, but in a way i've never felt before. I didn't feel stuck anymore, i found my answer. This whole time there was no monster. There was no monster because the monster, was me.
