I need you to let go ~adrienette/Ladynoir~

Chapter 1- alone for awile

I just looked at him dumbfounded. He knows we can't revile any kind of secrets, our identities matter so much.

He gave me an aggravated look, if saying something like that then that makes me mean, He can call me mean. But it doesn't work like that does it. It felt so fake but real, I feel like I'm in such a different world.

"Why do you act like this?!" He raised his voice at me. I gave him a confused look.

"Like what, trying to hide my identity?" I asked, he shook his head.

"No! It's not that- it's just, you play with my feeling! I love you yet you Deny my feeling like I'm just a person you couldn't even care for!" I looked at him but I didn't feel anger, I felt sadness.
I started to walk away but when he grabbed my wrist wanting me to stay.

"I'm sorry, I take it back, it's just, I don't know" he stated looking down at his feet. I didn't respond just gave him an upset look, but I could tell anger was coursing through him.

"You know what, no, I'm not sorry- I don't take it back". He yelled clearly more upset.

"I thought we were just going to be friends-"

"I can't handle I can't keep all my feelings bottled up, like you!" He started to raise his voice again. I looked him in the eyes.

"Can you honestly tell me you feel nothing for me" his teeth were together once he said that.

"I have feeling for you, chat noir" I said, I know I meant it but it didn't feel right saying knowing I like Adrien.
He looked at me sad and confused. Clearly still wanting answers.

"why can't we be together?!" His eyebrows were furrowed and his mouth was slightly open.

"You really want to know why. . ." I said, frankly I didn't know what I was going to say next. I paused as he waited for his response. I sighed mowing I have to tell him sometime.

"I can't trust myself with you". It was true, I don't know if I would leak my identity to him then he might accidentally call me something different. He looked at me,
"fine, my name is-"

BEEP. . . BEEP. . . BEEP. . .

My alarm for school went off, right when something was going to happen.

"Chat Noir and I haven't had a fight that intense ever, I mean I'd say something mean on accident and hurt his feelings and he'd get all sad but he hasn't ever lashed out at me." I said out loud and tikki heard me.

"What about Chat Noir" tikki rubbed her eyes when she said that.
'Hopefully today will be a good day.' I thought to myself.

Once I got dressed and had a piece of toast I went to school. Once I got there I bumped into Alya. I fell down and she giggled a bit on how clumsy I am. She held her hand out and I grabbed it. I saw Adrien go over and talk to Nino. Alya always makes me go with her to go talk to her boyfriend which leaves me to talk to Adrien.

I'm not the hottest when it comes talk to him nor about him. Both I somehow get flustered. And that's the only reason I go to parties it to hopefully kiss him. But it never happens because I really do like Adrien, so I have to take baby steps, first to be friends with him. If I can even talk to him.

"Hey, Marinette". He waved at me and I kinda waved back as I cleared my throat.

"I need advice". He straight out says.

"A-advice, wait- from me" I pointed at myself and started blushing.

"Yeah, it's just uhm, well, uh not really advice but help, can you help me with a project I'm doing about ladybug" I gulped as he said that, he wants to know stuff about me! Well technically my other version of myself!

"Y-Yeah of course, when d-do you need help" I stuttered out. He smiled knowing I agreed

"Like, after school". I nodded my head,
"like in the library?" I asked.

"Yeah, well thank you Marinette. See you in class!" He walked off.

"Marinette, you just said yes to helping him with something about Ladybug." Tikki said.

"Oh- OHHH, oh no, what if- what if-" tikki cut me off.
"Just say you remembered you had plans" it was a good idea but I was going to be with Adrien.

"Well, I can keep my cool" I said with a smile.
"But if anything got out of hand I'd leave" I said.

. . . .

I saw Adrien walk into the library when I was talking to tikki about my dream of Chat Noir.

"Do You think that it could be a sign of you should give him a chance" tikki said, I gave her a neutral face.

"Really do you also want me to say who I am" I said and tikki hid.

"Who were you talking to?" He asked as he put down some books of the amazing ladybug.

"Uh- uh, no one" I said really awkwardly.

"Well let's get started". He said handing me a book.