“In the first point begins a line and in that line begins a world… and that world begins in me”-Carl, The Invoker
In my whole Childhood... I feel like I'm in a cage and I can't get out...
I was living in this Horrible life even though you say that I have such a completeness in my life.
Well yes, I have a normal life... I got my Mom and Dad, my Grandparents, cousins but I doesn't have any friends during those times, I can't always go outside of our compound just to try to have fun and find what could be the real games are... The games that I usually played were all those who can't give me a satisfaction for so long, those games are just used for the meantime then I will not gonna be satisfied next time I use it... Well how fuck is my life was? In my Childhood I never learn to be contented, I just wanna find more, something like an perfection that everyone is searching... a perfect satisfaction that will gonna be making anyone contented...
I reach Kinder and Elementary in UB... In that place I found everything that I was searching... friends, fun and more... but still, it's not the satisfaction that could last me for my whole life. Well fucking yes, I CAN'T JUST GO FIND THINGS THAT EASY... Well I'm a try hard student, I found some friends but sooner they just left and gone. AIN'T THAT EASY ISN'T? Seriously I just go to school just to be happy and not to study; I have no such interest in Studying, well because it's purely boring and fucking waste of time... Even though I see my grades goes like 79 80 81 77 something like that... well those are just numbers who just judge my grade. It doesn't really say how much I do in school because most of the times the head ache teachers doesn't see such an effort for some students. Well they can see efforts but only to THOSE who are the favorite by the teacher.
In love, I believe that the more people that you had came though, the more you will gain like some fame or greatness? Something likes that but that’s not a good thing. But now I realize If you last with someone until end well then you got the greatness you ever wanted.
There come times that I just wanna be alone and having a night with all by myself… Draw and draw things that I can be happy with. Since the beginning this is the thing that is left to me and the only thing that I can be the best with.
Sooner and sooner, I escaped the HELL of Elementary life and well shit I’m out of there and I’m exhausted already in that place but still I’m in a new dimension of hell, something called High school life. One of the mostly said the most memorable part of Hell, maybe there are much more torture there? Some more faggots that I will meet, much more bastards that I’ll be hang on and maybe I can find something like happiness? Well I’m always the happy kid since I’m born, everyone thinks I’m wonderful during the times I really do because I do have everything in my side...
Well my life in Highschool Goes like
1st Year
I’m the president of the class, the wrong choice, worst man to hang with. In those times I began playing DotA with some of my friends there, every afternoon we go to the computer shops and go on play games like that. I lost trust from some people and I do lost friends during that year because I’m really not the one that they wanted to be with because I don’t deserve that position…
2nd year
I’m the Vice President of the class, I did nothing for fuck sakes because I know the president could handle everything over and I’m a fucking bitch during those times. I had improved my DotA gameplay because I hang with one of my friend. I literally have a close friend in the class; I have my close friend either the two sections beside our room. I do improve in some instances of study and I did work very well.
