good, tho useless writing :(

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today was going to be a long day. a Tuesday it was, and that meant it was the second day of school which also meant we get our textbooks. the most worst things in the world.
it was also the morning after the ball. the morning after i learned that i would be marrying a man named Houston Sage. at least he wasn't hideous and rude. he was a nice man. it seems weird calling someone a man if they're only twenty, but it only depends on how the act. rude and selfish is a boy and kind and selfless is a man. another thing is the fact when you're writing a poem let's say. you need to use your verb tenses correctly. for example saying, he loved before but he loves now; it's two completely different sayings but it's so pretty when you understand the difference between the two. my head is so full of shit that i've just got to let it drain out a bit.
i didn't want to see Houston in the hallways. he's no harm but it's odd to think i'd be his wife in such a short amount of time. i'm still shocked that i haven't cried or complained anymore. i'm numb from the experience. no feelings. but many thoughts.

i dress myself in the same old uniform and brown boots, only today i put on a sweater. mascara, bronzer, and brow gel would do it for me today. cherry lip smacker and perfume completed the look as usual. i grabbed my school bag and left again.

"Caroline Dahlia Grey! where on earth have you been? first you leave the ball for an hour, then you return to drink seven glasses of champagne only to pass out on the piano." Julianna runs to me to nearly have collapse when she throws herself at me to hug.

"i passed out on the piano?" i cover my face in shock, but soon after i begin hysterically laughing.
"that you did Miss Caroline. you also cried for about twenty minutes straight after i brought you back to your dorm." i cried, hmm i wonder what that was about? maybe the fact that my parents are officially crazy by planning my life out for me.

"oh god." i laugh again. Jules and i continue catching up as we make our way down the hall and to the education building.
my classes aren't the absolute most worst things ever. i suppose they could get better each day. Julianna and i make it to the door of our home room. i take a step in and look up. i immediately see Houston wearing an Armani suit with out the blazer. his sleeves were rolled up and there veins popping out of his muscular forearms. i sped walked out of the lecture room.
"Caroline what's wrong?" Julianna catches up to me, trying to match my pace.

"i cannot go into that room." I stated.

"what? why not. girl, your face is bright pink, were you lookin' at a boy?" Jules inquired.

"what? no way." i turned my head and looked at her. she had a hand on her hip and she gave me that look. you know, a type of side eye.

"so what's his name?" she asks.
"come here." i motioned to a place where there weren't any people. most everyone was in a room but some were just wondering around the hall.
"Julianna Bea Beal. you cross your heart, swear on your grandmothers grave-."
"my grandma ain't dead." she whispers.
"just go with it. ok anyways, you promise?"
"i swear. i know how promises work with you. if someone breaks it, you cry." Julianna laughs.
"i'm sensitivitie. leave me alone." i smile at her.

"ok so you know how i left the dance yesterday. well the headmaster has been sending letters to my door telling me to leave the dance at ten and go to the main office. so i did, and i enter the room and there are two couples. one my parents and the others -also parents -to a boy named Houston Sage. the headmaster started talking and told us that Houston and i would be getting married by the end of next month. an arranged marriage. my parents and Houston's parents fucking agreed to that so now i'll be a married woman be the end of next month. oh and Houston is in that class that i know don't want to go into." i take a deep breath and slouch against the wall. Julianna just stares at my with wide eyes.

"holy fucking shit fuck." she says.

"exactly what i said!" i whisper yell. Julianna sits up from the wall. she crosses her arms and gives me another look. this one said, 'your doing it'. shit. and before i could think again, the girl shoved me into the room. i stumble into the room, but quickly stand straight and look around. everyone is staring.

"good morning Ms. Grey and Ms. Beal." our professor Mr. Benton laughs.

"hi." we both smile and wave sweetly. we run up the stairs and take our usual seats. then i text Houston. i've got to tell him i told Jules. my mother texted me his number and i kind of had to save it, because i would be marrying the man.

Caroline: i told Julianna....

Houston: told her what ?

Caroline: everything from last night

Houston: i understand. it's quite hard not to tell a story like that! try not to tell anyone else though

Caroline: thanks . i made Jules pinky promise she wouldn't tell a soul

i look up from where i was sitting and see Houston grinning. we make sudden eye contact. i turn pink and immediately look away. Julianna looks at me.
"aw sweet Caroline! you're blushing!" Julianna whispers.

"i can't help it!" i smile to myself.

"it's love at first sight." Julianna puts her hand over her heart and gives off a pouty face.

"definitely not." i argue.

"quit lying to yourself." she laughs.