Hello, it's
me again, another anonymous author that is not necessarily trying to make her voice heard. I'm just trying to get things off my chest when it feels like it s too much.
I don't know how to talk about my problems, hell, I don't know how to open up. And it's not because I don't have persons that I can talk to, because believe me, I have. It's just that I'm used to be the one that listens, the one that always has "great advice", the one that always knows what to say to her friends if they are feeling down.
I always feel that if I tell people what's on my mind they will think I'm pathetic, that they have bigger problems and mine don't matter and that they wouldn't quite understand. But my biggest fear has always been the fact that they might not know what to say to me if I open up my heart and speak up. And it's scarry because I always know what to say, I always cheer them up, I always help them see themselves. But when it comes to me i feel like nobody is trying to do that.
It might be because of my insecurities, it might be only in my mind, I don't really know. What I do know is that, yeah, I should learn to love myself before anything else. But it's fucking hard. It's fucking hard to keep up with the world and with expectations. It's fucking hard to believe in yourself and to give yourself a chance. And it's even harder to not judge yourself...
Especially when it feels like you are the only one left out. When everyone receives compliments, but you don't...When everyone has some guy to hit on them, but you don't.When everyone is in a relationship, but you aren't.
And eventually you start to crave attention and affection. It's inevitable, it's in our nature as human beings. And it becomes more and more frustrating every day. It's even harder when no one actually knows what's going on in your head.
But how? How do you learn to love yourself? How do you open up? How do you let people in?
YOU ARE READING
2019
NezařaditelnéIf you've been that one person that it's the third wheel between best friends, and if you think that whatever you do is just not enough you sound just like the person writing this book. Never been the centre of attention? Never received compliments...
