I don't know how to say no.
Saying yes has always been something that I have been shown to do. Whenever I said no the consequences were terrible. No has never meant much coming from me and it probably never will.
Whenever I say no I have to have a reason. "Because" and simply just "No" has never been acceptable.
Somehow everybody is entitled to what they want except me. Somehow I have to always give everybody what they want and I can't ever say no.
No has meant "I'm going to do it anyway"
"Let me put my fingers in you" "No." And then he does.
"Suck my dick". "No." So then it's suddenly not my choice.
"Date me". "No." "Well you're just a whore".
I don't think anything will ever be my choice. I will always just do what I'm told.
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Notes
RandomThis is just writings from my notes that I can't make into actual stories. Some of these are sort of poems and some are rants and some talk about things that bother me. There isn't much else to it.
