In My "Dreams"

What is a dream?? From what I have learned, the term "dream" has multiple meanings and variations of itself. For example, a dream could be what you see and experience during your deep sleep, or it could be a goal one wishes to obtain, or maybe even an idea. But I wonder, what if all of these things molded into one?? And also, is a dream the thing that the dreamer perceives, or is it a generally accepted concept?? As another example, I guess popular dreams would be having super powers or fighting zombies or meeting mystical creatures. If thats the case, then I guess I can say I have no dreams. None of my dreams include those things or relate to the supernatural. But....what if dreams were merely our thoughts showing us that the seemingly impossible can be possible, if only for one night?? In this instance, I have had those before. In my "dreams," my goal, ideas and what I wish to experience all coincide. All the nights I "dream" have the same result. It's me, and I live the life I live now. Only I have someone else with me. Idk if she is my gf...or my wife....or merely just the woman I chose to spend my life with. I have never seen her face, I just know she's there. Sometimes the dreams are general, like us just spending time together, and other times they are more specific. Sometimes we will go to a place I have only heard of because she liked it, or we will get Cinnabon because she knows I like it. We would hold hands, looking at trees on gray, cloudy days, or lay down in my bed and tell each other stories about our lives. I know that in my sleep I talk, especially in the middle of my sleep where its deepest. My family has told me time and time again. I've discovered that I'm talking to her, and through my words you hear my darkest secrets and deepest concerns and brightest hopes. Cause in my "dreams" I've found someone I can share my all with. She isn't someone who makes me feel like a last resort, option two, or never not number one. She doesn't talk to me about all the guys she could have had, or that she doesn't know what she wants, or tells me about her exes and how much she misses them sometimes. To her, I was truly someone she held above all of that. I found people in real life I can share with, but none that understand me, or choose to help, not like she does. Some days...I will wake before she does and make her eggs and bacon (cause that is the only breakfast food I know how to make), and she would look at me thinking that she was the luckiest person on earth, knowing that I still find her beautiful with her messy bed hair. She would accept my family, and get angry at my friends when they take me away from her for a little while. Each day I dream is a new day with her, as if I was living a completely different life with her. I couldn't make this up if I tried. But, at the end of the "dream" day, it is always night time and we always lay down to sleep. We would stare each other in the eye for seemingly ever, still not seeing her face but knowing its the most beautiful thing in the world. I have loved before, but I loved as a best friend...or was merely in love with the idea of being in love. I never actually fell in love with no one, but when...or if I do...I imagine it would feel a lot like the dreams do. Everything happens for a reason, all the pain I've experienced in my life has lead me to give the best advice seeing as how I know exactly what most of you go through. Maybe thats what God's plan was for me, to endure the worse the world has to offer my feelings in order to protect everyone else. My name means "to endure"...it means "everlasting." But I wonder how much I will be able to take. I am proud of myself so far though. I'm getting off topic now. Anyways, when I lay down to sleep beside her at night, I wake in real life. But everything is so clear and vivid, to the point where, if only for a second, I am convince my "dreams" are real life. If not, they are definitely fantasy based on reality. It would be truly depressing if a dream is the place where the impossible is possible, for I would love for this to come true. Half of me thinks "If my dreams are the only place where I can see you and be with you, then I will sleep forever." But the other half of me believes that it would be giving up hope to sleep an endless, beautiful dream. I will keep my faith in God and myself, I will protect my heart for as long as I have the strength to. Until God calls me home, I will do my very best to struggle on until I make my dream a reality. But until I find her, I have my family's love, my friend's support, and my "dreams."