My Life Behind Closed Doors (On Hold)

Chapter 1: New beginning, Same life

Zoe's pov.

~~~~Dream~~~~

'NOOO!!! Mommy, Whats wrong? Where's Daddy? Daddy!' I was crying by now watching as my Mum died before my eyes. She was killed and i couldn't help, all i could do was watch as her life slipped away from her slowly. ARRRGGG!!! that's all i wanted to do scream nothing else but scream. But i couldn't.

'I love you my Cheeky Monkey. But it's my time to go, but i need you to promise me something, okay?' she spoke in a weak angelic voice.

'Yes, anything Mommy' I answered through my own heart wrenching sobs.

She was getting weaker by the minute and Daddy still has to come.

Help.

That's what she needs. But there is none.

With her last breathe she whispered 'Run, Run Away as soon as you can baby, and know that i will always love you, Always' And with that last sentenced she died right in my arms. I just managed to tell her i will and i love her too, but me being four i didn't understand what i had to run from so i didn't i stayed and that was my biggest mistake EVER!

~A week after~

Pain. That's all i could think.

It's been a week since my mother died in my arms, and now my Dad has started hitting me. I never even knew why until now as he screams in my face he says the sentence i have been thinking to myself ever since that day and now he has just confirmed my own thoughts:

'IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT! YOURS' he screamed as he advanced on me with the burning hot poker from the fire place. He used his free hand and grab me by my neck and held me tight against the wall as the burning poker was dragged dangerously slow across my right cheek.

'AAARRRRGG!!'

From then on out i knew that my life will be completely different from the one i used to have...

~~~~End Of Dream~~~~

I bolted up right drenched in my own sweat with my salty tears pouring from my probably now red puffy eyes, screaming but instantly stopping as soon as i realized what i was doing. Holding my breathe i listen for the heavy steps of the beast, just as i was about to take my deep breath of relief i heard them stomping towards my door. Then suddenly BANG! As my father storms in with a murderous look in his eyes.

"I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU NOT TO MAKE ANY SOUNDS" He screamed ever so nicely in my face.

By now i was shaking from the fear of what is about to come and just as i thought he forced spoon full after spoon full of peanut butter down my throat. As my throat began to close he pulled out my epipen and injected me. You see he doesn't want to kill me.

YET he still needs meas his punching bag, so that's why he saves me.

After he left i glance at my clock the red digital letters read 4:30 i still have an hour before i need to get ready for school so i just lie in my bed until i can breathe. I look around my room with disgust, i suppose it could be worse it's just plain, simply plain. All i have is a bed which is extremely tatty and a wardrobe which is about a quarter full and that is all my clothes and the bottom draw is where i keep my underwear. And that's all i have in my room nothing fancy just simple needed things, nothing personal. The only special item i have is my mum's wedding ring i never take it off its the only thing i treasure.

5:30 i get up and wonder into the bathroom ever so quietly, and thankfully it worked he didn't even move. After removing my clothing i hopped in the already warm shower hissing in pain from the beating then night before. Great now i have to wear long clothing to cover them and its summer Erg, i also need to have a forged letter ready in case i have P.E.

I hopped out the shower and blow dried my hair leaving it lose to cover they purple bruise forming on my face, i also put on my make up i only really wear it because i have to cover the bruises. Once i finished applying my eyeliner i slipped on my clothes and ran for the front door grabbing my bag along the way. Just as the tips of my fingers graze the cool brass handle i heard my name being slurred from behind me "Zoeee, Where are y...youu goooing?" Great he's drunk, note the sarcasm.

I turned around to find him about a foot away Uh Oh not again " I'm off to my N..n...new school"

"WHAT?! New school well then let me tell you the rules. Okay?" I nod knowing if i speak i was in for it and plus i only talk now when necessary otherwise i like to think of myself as mute. He carried on in his drunken state "One: No friends What so ever, Two: No talking to ANYONE i have told them youuur mute and Third: Don't Even looook at the boooyssss. GOT IT???"

As soon as he finished i got felt a fist connect to my stomach and one to my face. Tears sprang to my eyes at the amount of pain, but refused to satisfy him by letting them fall.

I don't know why he tells me not to talk to anyone i won't anyway and they will probably never really try to talk to me i mean, I'm ugly that what i have been told all my life. That i'm disgusting to look at.

I have honey blond hair, dull grey eyes that used to be silver when i was happy and young but not any more. I'm a little under weight so i don't have any curves apart from my chest i got that from my mum.

She was beautiful, unlike me.

Once i reached the school i went to the office and was greeted by an old lady with a warm smile the i gave a small one of my own back to.

"Hello dear, you must be Zoe Hill, here is a map and your schedule" she said handing them to me before continuing

"Welcome to Faithful Light High have a great day" with a thankful nod i left the office only to run into a group of five cheerleaders.

"Watch it Nerd" the head cheerleader sneered

"Now apologize" when i didn't say anything she went to say something else but i felt a presence walk up next to me

"Leave her alone Stacey" Stacey glared at the girl but then stormed off with her minions following behind.

The girl next to me came and stuck out her hand and said in an excited voice

"Hi I'm Sarah, who are you?"

 I shook her hand then pulled out my note book and pen and wrote 'Zoe and thank you for your help but i have to go'

With a small wave over my shoulder i was off to my first lesson. When i got there i i knocked and waited for the sign to enter and when it did i wish it never came every single set of eyes were trained on me as i handed the teacher a slip.

This is going to be a fun day.

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Hey,

so this my first chapter and very first book please and tell me how i can improve it would mean alot to me.

Peace out X