Dear Diary

Diary entry #1

Friday, March 15 . Dear Diary,

I'm quite the hopeless romantic, as well as an avid believer in soul mates. The idea that there is someone out there made perfectly for you gives me a bit of hope. And in this diary entry, I'll explain the time that I thought I found my soulmate.

The boy that I met was high spirited. He always knew the right thing to say. Whether it was to make me laugh, or make me annoyed. I saw him as a friend for the first few interactions. And I denied to myself that any feelings would bloom from this.

They did, obviously! I mean, he was dreamy and caring. I couldn't not fall for him, you know? Having read many romance novels and seeing all the romance movies there is to see, I knew this kind of guy was one-in-a-million.

I wouldn't tell him though, because I knew he didn't feel the same. It was quite obvious in the way that he didn't reciprocate the feeling of excitement at a single message from me as I did for him. I sound like a pussy, I know, but it hurt to think that the universe was really fucking me over like this. We talked a lot, actually. Which was surprising considering how little enthusiasm he showed me. But as day's went on, the texts slowed down.

And I found out he was talking with my best friend. She assured me, "I don't have feeling's for him like that, you dumbass." But what about him? If he had feelings for her, would she really deny him like I hoped she would? No, she wouldn't deny him. I mean, why would she? I'm positive she's figured out he's a one-in-a-million guy like I did.

Selfish thinking to be quite honest. He's not even my boyfriend! We barely had any flirty interactions, and yet the power of my hopeful thinking came through, and I thought that something could truly come out of this. But can't we all be selfish once in a while? Aren't I allowed to just have a break? I found my soulmate, didn't I? So, why aren't things falling into place like the books said?

I guess we'll wait and see, after all, tomorrow is another chance for another soulmate interaction.

Yours truly,

xxxx.