ME
Hello I am a 15 year old girl, I am 4'11 and weigh about 90 and what else.... my race is Latina and I have brown hair. Well enough about me that's not important, But something I want to mention is I have a big heart even though it might not seem like it, in all honesty. I suffer from Anxiety since I was a lil baby child unfortunately, but yeah since I was like around 7 I've been going trough really bad panic attacks and yeah, its gotten better but it still haunts one in a while, but I think it's fine;). I am a really insecure girl like really I wish I was a little more confident.
Before yawl read. if you do. Then please excuse my bad grammar I ain't no writer I just want to leave this here.
Bear with me;) < no pun intended
MINE
I am currently dating this boy, He is two years older than me and is now 18. oof. I Really love this boy more than any of my past boyfriends because he is just so special and I like him a lot and his humor matches well with mine. We both had this really good connection because music and art. I first started dating him on September 29, 2018 and now/today is March 16, 2019 and I don't want to fuck this up but I don't want to waste his time either.
My boyfriend has a rough past because of the cheaters and liars I guess you can say. He's been hurt by most and it's not fair to him because he deserves someone to make him happy and be loyal to him. He is not bad looking and is good with words sometimes he's like a poet but not as corny. He's a cool poet. He has dreams and goals and I see that I'm not worthy of him. It wouldn't be hard for him to find a partner if he chose to because he is a really good talker.
My boy is the average beaner height of 5'9 he was pretty brown curl hair and dimples that look deep enough for me to drown in. His eyes are so deep brown if I look into them for to long I feel like crazy and my heart beats fast, or maybe that's just me being insecure. I look at him, yet I can't look him in the eye without looking away since I'm insecure. I can't help it.
But that's my boy and I love him and this isn't fair.
BESTFRIEND
I got this friend yeah he's a boy and about the same age as me. We met because he was a friend of my ex. We messaged back and forth on snapchat and had these good as funny conversations. Man I love talking to this boy, we also played video games together. He's a really out going person. He play a lot of sports mostly soccer and football. He has the body of a jock I guess lmaooo, since he is tall idk exactly but taller than my boyfriend. He is tan tall and has a thicker body but you can't really tell much because he is tall.
the first time I saw him was at one of my friend's quinceniera and he was there with his girlfriend that is now his ex. That day was around August 2018 before the school year started. Hew said hi to me and bye that day, and I didn't think much of it he was just someone I knew at the time.
When he broke up with his girl he invited me to a quinceaniera and I went and we danced together and overall I guess it was fun. On the way back we went on this truck with a bunch of his friends and we where all the way in the back back. On the way back he gave me a kiss on my cheek and told me "you're like one of my bestfriends you know" and he told me he loved me, but I didn't say it back because i'm not lovey dovey like that even with friends but I told him 143 which is the numbers meaning I love you LOL I know I'm a pussy but since there I really did love him and when we both got home that night we played fortnite all night together and talked.
I really like talking to him because I feel more comfortable I don't know why. I can talk to him for hours, even on the phone and I really don't like talking on the phone with people like that, that's what's special. One time or maybe two times I have gotten drunk and high and called him tweaky and sang to him and talked to him late at night on the phone
