The Real Reason I Kept You Alive //Sebastian x Older Ciel//

Gay Thoughts And Bad Timing?

   (Ciel's pov)

     I was sitting in my office thinking of something that had been bothering me for a while now. I couldn't get it out of my head. I put away my papers and laid my head on my desk, "This is quite tiresome.." I sighed.

      "May I ask what you are referring to, my lord?" Sebastian walks into the room. 

   "Life, Sebastian, just life..." I said, my head face down on my desk, not even looking up to speak with him properly.

    I had gotten used to him not knocking anymore, the sound of the wood got annoying while I worked, so I eventually just told him he was welcome in any time. Well, that and one other thing, but I'd prefer not to say that at the moment, it is a bit embarrasing, and compleatly out of character for someone of my sorts.

    I turned my head on the desk a bit so I could meet his gaze, 'Those eyes..' I thought to myself. He looks at me with a bit of concern, but I know he is enjoying this. Watching me suffer I mean. He knows why I'm bored, and yet he still decides to torture me by making me talk about it instead of helping me find something to do
...Damn demon..
   
    "Whatever do you mean my lord," End my suffering.. "Why, just the other day you were practically jumping for joy at the fact that-" I interrupted him. Oh, how I hate his obvious sarcasm.. "Shut up already... that's rubbish and you know it."

    "We haven't had a case in weeks. Nothing interesting in the newspaper, no new orders from the Queen, no problems with Funtom, absolUtely nothing to dok with my life... Bloody hell, it's like the world is practically begging for me to give in and beg for something to go wrong."

   "My young lord, should you not be happy that there's nothing going wrong." Make him shut up, please... "For example, this means that no one is in danger or suffering. As well as the fact that you don't have to worry about not getting anything done in time, for you have nothing that is needed to be done. Am I not correct to assume that at the moment you should be at peace?" That's just it you bloody idiot!!

   I groaned,"Sebastian, I have absolutely nothing to do, I'm wasting away whilst I could be enjoing my time, catching all the idiots in this world and exposing them for who they really are, whAt they really are."... "But no, all I get to do is sit back and enjoy the company of the dust collecting in my brain while I think about the things going on around me, oh wait..THERE AREN'T ANY!!" I'm so done with life...God why does this world have to be so cruel..Well, I suppose it isn't being cruel per se, but it is dreadfully dull.

   Sebastian has that look in his eyes, with that little smirk he gets when he knows I have been defeated in some way... His fun has begun, here we go. Bring on the smartass comments from the demon butler. "Ah yes. My young master has found himself in a state of dissadisfaction with what the world has to offer him. What ever shall we do of this my lord." ..Shut up....

    Dumb butler, why does he have to be here right now.. Ugh, just let me rot away on my own time Sebastian. "The world has nothing to offer me right now anyway. Besides, what could yOu do about it?"

   "Oh, my lord. I couldn't possibly tell you. You'd think strangely of me, and we wouldn't want that now, would we?" Why must he do this to me..? "What do you mean, Sebastian?" He looks away and chuckles a bit, "Well, perhaps a good laugh might be a good thing for you right now. You'd find out eventually anyway. I'll show you, but you have to close your eyes for just a moment." Interesting, maybe this could actually be fun. "Allright, but, don't do anything weird.." 

    "Open them now." That isn't Sebastians voice, but it is definitely him saying those words. I would know, he's been my butler for years, we have that type of bond that is sok close that either of us can tell when something is off. And as of right now, that girly voice is definitely my Sebastian..or at least, I hope it isn't...