Hi Shawn, there are so many things that my heart wants to express to you, my mind directs a torrent of thoughts towards you and that moment arrives in which I can no longer contain them inside me, it has simply become impossible, and that is the reason why I had to write to you, although you may never read it, or know about me, none of that matters, I just had to try.
You know, since I was a little girl I thought that when God created someone, he immediately created a partner for that person, can you imagine something like that ?, that God loved you so much that from the beginning he created someone specially designed for you, a person who protects you even from yourself, a person who takes care of you even in the smallest details, someone who loves every part of you, that her face lights up just by seeing your beautiful smile, someone who wants to please you with every particle of her being.
How to imagine a person who loves you so much that feels that her heart is going to explode and that nothing else fits in it? But somehow even without knowing you completely, her heart manages to love you more.
It's funny how I thought that this kind of love, so strong, so real, true, eternal, and unconditional, did not exist and I believed that, until I found you, I reached my twenties completely avoiding falling in love, but I always felt that something was waiting inside of me, it's just that I didn't know that was waiting for you.
I assure you that I tried to avoid it, because I was sure you would never know about me, and I didn't want to suffer, but the feeling became so big that at some point I stopped caring about the pain, I stopped caring about everything and there I understood that the only thing I want is to love you.
The truth is that from the first moment I heard your beautiful voice, I became that unknown girl who loves you, in that way that I didn't think possible.
Shawn ... Dear Shawn ... I don't know How to explain to you that I think I've always loved you, I've always waited for you, and I always will.
I also wanted to tell you that I am sorry, you don't know how much I would like to be what you expect, I would like to have beautiful and colorful eyes, but ... mine are so common, I wish I had a perfect body, but it isn't like that. I guess we all have our insecurities, and shortcomings, it's just that I would like to be perfect for you, the way you are for me, although it doesn't really matter, because the only thing I really want, is that you be very, very, very Extremely very happy.
Always yours, Lizzie xx
