You Dont Care *

2// Alone

Dani's P.O.V

I roll down my sleeves and exit the bathroom ashamed. Thats the 7th time this week, its only Wednesday.

I sighed and walked downstairs, time to act perfectly fine. Even though Im dying inside. I sit on the couch, looking down.

I heard the conversations of my sisters, their laughs that make me wanna crawl up and live inside their body, just to feel happy.

No one noticed me, they,walked past me.. like I was invisible. Like I didnt matter, like Im useless. I walked Out the door and onto the porch. I made my way into the woods, hoping to get lost, but I dont have the courage to run away.

I jumped down into a hole, there I brought my knees up to my face.,There I can cry, and yell as loud as I want to. Because I know that no one can hear me. "Why am I so ugly? Why did you make me this way!? I should be as beautiful as my sisters! But instead you made me a hideous beast!" I yelled, blaming god for my problems.

I cryed, and cryed. I can only hide so long, I wish I could stay here forever, and not have to worry about being perfect for my precious sisters. They dont understand. They never will, their caught up in their own lives.

I felt a sharp pain in my chest. I feel like nobody loves me, nobody wants to be there for me.

Who cares, even if they did I'd push them away.

Why cant anyone love me? Why do they always use me for publicity? Am I just some kind of reward?

Am I some toy people can play with?

I dont understand whats wrong with me. I thought I was.. okay.

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I walked inside the house, to come face to face with Lisa. "Hey Dan! Where have you been?" she smiled.

"I went for a walk." I lied, even If I told her what I really did, she'd shrugg and walk away. Like I said before, no body cares.

I walked away from her and upstairs, hoping to be alone in my room. But Lauren was in there. She looked up and smiled, "Hey Dani!!"

That made me slightly smile, but it still hurt my chest.

"Hey Lauren." I replied trying to smile again, that was pointless.

I sat down on my bunk, and thought. About Life, and if it was meant for me. If I should end it, to make all the pain go away.

"What would you do if today was my last day?" I whispered up to Lauren.

"What? I dont wanna think about that! Your crazy Dani, always thinking about the wierdest questions to ask." I saw her head appear from the top. I looked up and saw her smile, "Thats why I love you! You always add excitement."

How can she not tell, I want to die?