Guess what? I'm alone. Everyone is always judging and hating. I feel like I have to change myself so much that I've lost site of who I really am. My life isn't hard. Obviously not if I'm writing this because you need money to write on sites like these. So, I'm in my school play and Select Choir and cant help but feel like no one likes me. I think they feel like I'm invading. I don't think I'll do it next year. I think my next course of action is to quit while no one will miss me. Band, I might as well be invisible. I can hide or not be in class and no one will care. I think some people wish they could be invisible but it sucks. You say something and people stare. You try something and your hands and voice shake so much you fuck it up. I'm done trying to impress everyone around me. I'm so desperate for approval that I can't. I look and sound desperate for attention. I'm super close to just giving up. In class they all look at me like I should just shut up and not talk.
I wrote this in March of 2019. I still feel this.
