Band Of The Broken

Well It Better Be White And It Better Be Cut And It Better Be Just My Size

(( The day that Frank and Gerard are released Frank's pov))

I sat on my hospital bed, my stitches are being taken out, but for some reason they made me stay a week... I think. Gerard and I both get out today, but my pills aren't working... they make me more anxious and I've been constantly shaking and having panic attacks every day and I don't know why I just want to be with someone, I feel alone. I sit in this room 24/7 thinking of Gerard and his surgery, I don't even know if he's okay or I just don't know... A nurse walked into the room and handed me the papers to leave I grabbed them and signed them, she nodded and left the room. I stood from the bed and grabbed some clothes, black band tee-shirt and black skinny jeans, my mom packed a bag of clothes for me a while ago. I grabbed the black duffle bag and slung it over my shoulder walking to the waiting area to wait for Gerard...

(((Gerard's Pov)))

I'm gonna see Frank but I need it more than him now, at least I think so. I have many scars on my upper stomach and lower chest from the surgery and they are sore from time to time. I don't even know... and I... I just want to see Frankie. I have already signed the papers and Frank's dad is in jail. Could it be better? Yes it could, I could not need the drugs, but I can't help it... I can't quit, not just with the snap of my fingers... no.

I walked out of the room and started towards the waiting room, I smiled when I spotted Frank, he cut the sides of his hair short and the rest longer some of it was curled to the side slightly my hair has grown out to my shoulders and I think I'm gonna dye it back to black, my natural hair color is dark brown but I prefer black. I walked over to Frank and picked him up bridal style, he squeeked and blushed.

"Geeeeee," Frank whined.

"Whaaaat," I moched sassily, earning a slap from Frank.

"Put me down!" He demanded

"But the first grader needs to be taken care of," I responded, he gasped and slapped my arm.

"I'm seventeen!" I put him down after he slapped me for the fifth time, and I rested my arm on his shoulder. Frank slapped my arm off and grabbed my hand, then walked out of the hospital after many play fights that ended with free coffee.

~~***~~ (( FRANKIE'S POV))

"I'm bored," Gerard stated as he flopped on his bed. He was being so dramatic. But his being dramatic is really cute ((Hell yee)). I walked over to him and laid a big kiss on his forehead. He blushed, and grabbed me making me lay on him my back against his chest. I moved to where I could face him, meaning that I was now straddling his hips, he pulled at the hem of my shirt and I took it off while Gerard took off his, I could see many scars the ones from surgery and more from before, I started to trace the scars on his shoulders and he traced some on my arms before pulling me against his chest.

"Your warm," I mumbled, he kissed the top of my head, I dosed of feeling warm and safe after years of abuse, self harm and suicide I finally felt safe...

((Gerard's pov))

Frank fell asleep on my chest I gently laid him on my bed and snuck to the bathroom and found my secret stash. I grabbed the bagges of white powder and poured it on the counter separating it into lines snorting it making me feel more relaxed the powder tickling my nose making me wipe it. I hid the powder at the back of the cabinet under the box of Q-tips. Frank would never find the baggs there I mean since when does Frank clean his ears? Just as I closed the cabinet Frank walked in.

"What are you doing?"he said. 

"Nothing I was just looking for Q-tips"I lied.

"Speaking of Q-tips I need to clean my ears."he said.

"I'll get them for you"I said in hesitation "Your just to short,"  

"Fuck you," He retorted.

"Yes, please Daddy," I fake moaned causing both of us to laugh and blush. I grabbed them not noticing one of the bags falling out, and handed the Q-tips adorably short boy I walked out and laid down on my bed, as I drifted off to sleep. 

I felt someone shake me awake I groaned in response.

"I knew you were hiding something"Frank said, I opened my eyes and looked at him his eyes puffy with tears about to spill. I noticed the semi translucent bag in his hand I felt the tears that Frank held in start to swell up in my eyes.

"Gerard, why?" he said in disbelief.

"I...I-I don't know... I've tried to quit but-" I was cut off by Frank hugging me, "Shh... you don't have to explain... just let me help you." he said I agreed by hugging back and nodding, I nussild my face into his neck and started to cry he did the same. We sat there on my bed for a while until I heard Mikey open the basement door and make fake gagging noises. I moved away from Frank and glared at my brother.

"Hey, it's not like you wanna makeout with Ray or anything." I called him out, he just ran back out blushing, Frank giggled and it was so cute.

"You know that you are adorable? Right?" He shook his head, and whispered into my ear. "I'm nothing compared to you, you are so fucking hot... like god damn!"

I felt my face heat up and I squeaked from embarrassment and he pulled away and looked me up and down, he put his right hand on my left cheek, I naturally leaned against his hand, he sighed and pulled me closer.

"Please don't harm yourself Gee, I care about you, so do your mom and Mikey," Frank mumbled.

"You bet my sass I will!" I said sternly with a hint of sass Frank looked at me concerned then caught on that I will try to stop the drugs, for my Frankie.

"I'll stop for you Frankie," I mumbled, he pressed his lips against mine. I made a weird noise of surprise but quickly melted into the kiss, I moved my hand to his hair and tugged on it slightly, he put his hands on my hips. I tugged a little harder, he moaned and I pulled away.

"You kinky bitch!" I exclaimed he sighed and looked down embarrassed. "Don't worry your kink is cute," I mumbled and made him look at me, his face was red and he looked slightly shocked, I pulled him close and cuddled him. I layed down and he cuddled closer, I kissed the top of his head and fell asleep...

I heard Frank whimper as I woke up, I glanced at him and saw him hugging himself. I felt his blood run cold. 

"So long to all of my friends every one of them met tragic ends. With every passing day I'd be lying if I didn't say that I miss them all tonight, And if they only knew what I would say if I could be with you tonight I would sing you to sleep never let them take the light behind your eyes. One day I'll lose this fight as we fade in the dark. Just remember you will always burn as bright, be strong and hold my hand, time becomes for us, you'll understand. We'll say goodbye today and I'm sorry how it ends this way, If you promise not to cry then I'll tell you just what I would say if I could be with you tonight. I would sing you to sleep never let them take the light behind your eyes. I'll fail and lose this fight never fade in the dark, just remember you will always burn as bright the light behind your eyes." I sang softly as an attempt of calming Frank, he cuddled closer, I gripped him tighter and kissed the top of his head. Soon enough I fell back asleep...

OMG SO MUCH FLUFF I DIED!