Fated

Chapter One

After shooting, Sean agreed to have coffee with Lana. To be honest, he didn't know what to expect because she had always suggested coffee together with all the 'gang'. So, as soon as he arrived, he asked unashamedly "How come just the two of us?"

She looked kind of startled by the question, like she didn't expect him to suspect anything.

"Just a coffee, what's wrong?" she said nonchalantly, almost offended.

"Yeah, what's wrong?" he repeated her question "You've been distant all day long, didn't even look at me between takes"

Lana sighed. She can play perfectly and portray her character splendidly, she actually has a lot of skills but lying to Sean is most certainly not one of them. When it came to him, it was never the same thing as any other person, really.

"Fred gave me the divorce papers this morning" she cut to the chase because what was the point in beating around the bush when she was going to surely weep anyway.

Sean tilted his head in question as if he wanted to know more, some clarification.

"He said they were just legal papers because our marriage ended a long time ago" Lana added "I said it was nothing like that for me, but then, when he mentioned you.." she tried to keep her voice steady and took a deep breath "Ah, I don't know, I just signed and then he left"

"Wait, what?" he was dazed "Why would he mention me?"

She looked up in order to keep the tears at bay "I can't"

When she looked at him in the eyes, pleading, a single tear slipped free, caught immediately by a gentle brush of his thumb "You know you can tell me anything, darling"

His hand rested on hers on the table, with apparently no intention of moving away.

Lana was overwhelmed, to say the least. Sean looked so perfect to her eyes, like no one could replace him, fill in for him in her life. But he was also so not hers. And probably never would be.

She was scared he would judge her for this. But she had to tell him. Clearly, it could not be an attempt to be together because they couldn't. It was just to be truthful to him because he was Tanya's husband and he sure as hell would not become her lover. She was not becoming a homewrecker. That was on the odd occasion he would feel the same.

"I.. Fred said he thought you and I were having an affair, for quite some time"

A wild-eyed Sean looked at her in disbelief "I told him it wasn't like that but then I signed because I realized I do care for you. A lot. And I've been giving you attentions, but I gave him too and I thought it would make up for it, for that thing I felt whenever—" she sobbed. Tears were running freely on her slightly flushed cheeks by now while she opened herself completely to him. He was now running his other hand up and down her back "It's alright, love, go on"

She used his sentence as a mean to prove her point "Whenever you call me love or darling, whenever you just know when I need you so you hug me and hold me and, God knows, I wish those moments could last forever" she got up from the booth "I know us can't happen, but I realized I love you and can't do anything about it" her voice broke and her emotional state was one nobody ever wants to be in.

"You know I love you too"

She scoffed "That's not what I was talking about, were you even listening?" she started to walk away from their spot.

"Lana—" he got up and took her hand again.

Oh, and how soothing such a simple touch and soft mentioning of her name was for her, but she couldn't melt. He was being a total dick playing ignorant, right now, when she was opening her heart and soul to him.