Fearing Feelings (Sequel to FF)

Chapter 7

Cali

Brooke is starting to irritate me with this marriage talk .She's pushing it . I know how long we been together and I know I should have been asked but I just can't bring myself to asking her . Lika . She's been on my mind lately . I just don't understand how it happened .I blame myself all the time for what happened .I need some advice . I had to go to the only person who could ever talk some sense into me . My mother .

"Hey big boy ." She greeted me with a hug . "Look at this muscles . I'm surprised you haven't killed Brooke giving her a hug." She joked feeling on my arms .

"Dang you getting on me already ma ?" We both laughed as we took a seat in the living room ."Where pop's?" I question .

"I don't know where that fool at ." She rolled her eyes . "What brings you here ?" Mama took a sip of her tea looking straight at me . I sighed .

I told her how Brooke's been questioning on why we aren't married and I told her my feelings about Lika .

"I swear you just like that old fool , boy . You didn't do anything to that girl . Lika was doing drugs before you she stopped when she meet you but she found her way back to them as well as that bastard Jerome . Woo Lord excuse my language but he was something eles . Brooke is not Lika Jayceon .Brooke loves you and that little boy . Brooke has never had a man like you . She knows you the one she just wants you to see that to ."

"Damn ma you spit some real stuff ."

"You already know . Now get out . and don't come back unless you got one of my grand babies . preferably both ." I shook my head , hugging her .

"Bye ma ." I smiled leaving out .

After I left my moms I went to the beach that we threw Lika's ashes into . In some way it felt like she was standing with me .

"I never thought I could love a woman again after you . You were everything to me . I'm sorry how things ended but I couldn't watch you abuse your self . I tried to help but you pushed me away . I think it's time to move on . I got a good woman I don't want to hurt her Lika . Just remember I'll never forget you . Don't watch over me . Watch over India she needs it more than me . I'm sure you know she's hurting more than any of us about you ."

You may think its weird I just talked out loud to her like but it helped me . It felt like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders .

India

"I don't know what to get her Bishop ." I stressed looking over my shopping cart online . Brooke's birthday was approaching fast.

"She always requesting for some custom Jewelry . Make her some ." I did think about that but I thought she was just saying that to make me feel good . But if Bishop thinks she serious than I will do it .

"You ordered the food?" I changed the subject to our house warming party / celebration for Tasha and I's store .

"Yea I did . Stop stressing ." Bishop massaged my shoulders .

"I just want things to go right ."

Party day

"Everything is straight ." Bishop informed me as he walked into our bedroom already fully dressed as I was checking myself out in the mirror .

"Since we graduated . You been dressing to impress ."

"What's that suppose to me ?" I raised my brow up at him .

"You looking better and better." I blushed ."Thank you baby." I wrapped my arms around his neck kissing him . I've missed Bishop we been kind of distant with work and I don't like the feeling . I wish we could just lay in bed but we got to make this money in order to survive .