Research never hurts.

Little Research Can Not Hurt.

When I crossed the threshold of the flat, I breathed a sigh of relief. Finally at home. The tour ended two days ago, and I still had in my ears a scream of people, ovations and cheers. This album was like a catharsis. - I thought with a smile. I thought a lot about everything, about life, about death, love, pain, every note was important. I composed like crazy, but the worst was the nights. Then everything came back. This pain - suppressed during the day - came back with doubled strength. The mind worked constantly, not leaving me alone. In the morning I rubbed my tired eyes, I was drinking coffee and I was going back to work like nothing had happened.

Steam of cool water woke up my body And bloody I could not forget the blue eyes of my friend who caught my eyes when he pulled off his shirt. Eicca had a nice body. He was slim, a bit muscular ... I could not look away from the dimples in his loins. At the sight itself, I felt hot, and the crooked smile of a friend told me that I must have had a significant face. And I could have sworn that I caught his eyes more often ... I bit my lower lip. Maybe we should talk frankly? - I asked myself aloud but not there among the guys from the team of the first technical team. We did not have a shadow of privacy, and such a conversation ... It certainly would not be right in that place or rather I should said "inside the male cave".

I brushed my wet hair against my cheeks and stepped out of the shower. The droplets of water ran slowly over my naked body. I covered my hips with a towel and looked in the mirror, sighing softly.

You always have to bother Kivilaakso ... Be honest at least. - I said quietly when the sound of my smartphone broke the silence.

I frowned my dark eyebrows, looking at the display. I cursed ugly ... That certainly did not make the whole matter any easier.


***


I walked along the wooden steps from the terrace with a hard step. I knocked on the door, waiting for his voice as for salvation.

- Here you are. - he replied with a smile, looking at my face.

- You do not have enough of me, Toppinen? We have just seen each other for over two months ...

Answered me his laughter.

- If not for the fact that you forgot your notes and left them at my case, I would give you peace. - he said, grinning. I moved restlessly. - Will you come in? - he asked, pushing back slightly. Damn ... I was about to quit and said, that I dreamed of my own bed, and that I only came to pick up my notes when his voice wrenched me out of my mind - There is no K and boys. They went to her parents. So how... will you come? - he asked, lowering his voice. . I could not utter words from a tightened larynx, so I just nodded.

I took off my jacket and shoes, following Eino towards the living room.

- How about a man's evening? Just you and me? - he asked trying to catch my eyes.

- I do not know what you've prepared, Toppinen. Maybe I should be scared? - I replied with difficulty. Eicca brought two beers, including a radio on the way. Eicca dimmed the light a little. I glanced at him in amazement. - Did you forget that ...? - I started, but he interrupted me.

- Both non-alcoholic. - he threw, opening the bottles and giving me one.

I leaned against the back, feeling his hot body digging into my side. I bit my lip. I had to talk to him.

However, Eicca was the first.

- Does it sound like you wanted to say something, Perttu? - he asked, taking a sip from the bottle and glancing at me. I moved restlessly, moving my hand through my hair.

- I ... I - said harshly. - Why ... Why do you think so? - I quit trying to hide my nervousness. I felt his arm behind my back.

The man beside him laughed softly.

- Shit, Perttu. How much do we know each other, eh? Almost 20 years? I can see that something disturbs you. Tell me what is going on.

I glanced at him, taking a long drink from the bottle.

- Do you remember ... Do you remember when we went to the second part of the State and watched movies? - I began uncertainly, seeing how the blond nodded. Eicca smiled only at the corner of his mouth.

- I think I know where you're getting at. - he replied.

- You were thinking about this one story in the movie, right? I mean, did you seriously think that two men could ... fall in love without even knowing about that?

- I do not know, maybe ... Where's the question from, Perttu? - he replied, looking at me more closely.

- I was thinking about this movie, about emotions and about all this. Have you thought how it is like? - I asked, feeling the red begin to burn my cheeks.

- What what's like? - he replied in a question, licking lightly his pretty lips. I think he caught my long gaze, because after a while he added. - Come on? You speak mysteriously, Perttu.

I breathed out loud.

- Sex. The guys are doing it. I ... have you ever thought about what is good about it, but that they are doing it?

Eicca laughed softly.

- Because sex is good. We both know about it.

I shook my head in response.

- But you do not know that, Eicca. You do not know if you do not do it. - I replied quickly. - Unless you ...? I asked, widening my eyes in amazement. The atmosphere between us after this question became momentarily heavier. I drank a quick sip from the bottle and put it back on the nearby table.