The Last Two:Surviving w/ Shawn Mendes

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"Dear Diary,
Tommy died. I almost killed myself. Amy isn't looking good these days. Mike looks depressed. Shawn is trying to keep calm. It's not going really good actually. I don't if it can get worse..."- My thoughts were interrupted by Shawn.
Shawn: Y/n pay attention! You can't just write in your notebook. You can fall and get hurt.
Me: Okay, I'm sorry.
Mike wasn't good these days too. He was really upset. He told me that he was upset because he lost a friend and almost lost another friend (me).
      Amy. She...her skin was so pale. I wanted to help her. I wanted to find a medicine that can help her. But I couldn't do anything. I'm useless.
     

         And Shawn...well, he is trying his best. He is trying to stay calm because if he isn't calm we won't be either.
"I'm a bad person, I hope someone kills me..."- I kept saying this to myself while walking through. We found a place right next to a river. It was a really beautiful place. Bad things happened to this world and I were happy that we could find a place that beautiful. Everything went wrong. The boys went out to set up the fire and Amy and I had a little conversation.
She pulled out a bear (a toy) from her backpack.
Amy: I just wanted to give it to you! If I die I want you to take this bear to a better place. This toy helped me through everything that happened in my life lately. I want you to remember me...
Me: I don't want it...because you will bring this bear on your own. I promise.
Amy: I know I don't have a lot of time and I want to say that you are my best friend...a sister...I can tell you anything. You make me believe that there is always hope.
Me: There is always hope and you are not going to die in this hell, okay?
Amy: I'm not sure. This is not hell...this is our home.