Thank you supernatural

Dear Cast and crew of the incredible Supernatural family, thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything you've done for so many people over the whole world over the past 14 going on 15 years.

When Supernatural started in 2005 I was only 6 years old and being from the UK and from a home struggling with money I didn't have access to American television shows, Supernatural didn't enter my life until I was 17 and honestly It couldn't have come into my life at a better time because it saved me.

On Wednesday 17th August 2016 I attempted to take my own life for the 3rd time, I had finished high school a year prior and nothing was going the way i had thought it would or wanted it to. I was bullied and beaten quite severely all the way throughout high school, I even had a few teachers who had it out for me for some unknown reason, my parents split when I was in year 10 and I lost contact with alot of my fathers family because because they all blamed me for the separation, all of this resulted in me missing classes and becoming afraid to leave my house because I believed what I was being told was true, I thought I was worthless, no one cared for me, I was an inconvenience in the lives of everyone I knew and their lives would be better without me in them.

Because this was the 3rd attempt on my life I ended up having to stay in hospital until I was both physically and mentally ready to go back home, this was when I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety and bipolar, during this time I spent a lot of time binge watching shows on the internet, one of the nurses saw what I was doing and the kind of shows I was watching, that's when she suggested I watch this show called supernatural, it had been on for quite a while and there was plenty of material to catch up on, I started at the very beginning and after hearing dean speak those infamous words " Dads on a hunting trip and hasn't been home in a few days" I was hooked.

Not having many friends and family being distant towards me I didn't have much to do and spent a lot of my time at home watching this incredible show and finding out about the people behind it, it wasn't long before I came across the campaign started by Jared Padalecki,  Always Keep Fighting, Jared started the AKF campaign in 2015 with the aim of raising awareness for mental health, Jared himself revealed that he suffered from depression, for once in my life I felt like I was no longer alone, no one in my family believes that mental illness is serious and its just an excuse so they didn't take my diagnosis seriously, seeing Jared go through this and be so confident talking about it being able to talk to other people and sharing his story, I felt like I could look up to him, kind of like an older brother who I could turn to for advice, since beginning AKF and other campaigns the wonderful actors on this show have started a conversation withing the community in which they're encouraging fans that it's okay to be open about their problems and prompting them to help each other because we are all family.

The wonderfully kind Jensen Ackles has showed me that anything can be done if you put your mind to it and work hard, he revealed that he suffered from anxiety and has struggled with many things in the past whether it be doing a difficult scene on the show or going on stage for panels at the many supernatural conventions that are held throughout the years, but throughout all of this he has proven that he can overcome everything and perform in front of thousands people and blow the roof off the place with his incredible voice.

The beautiful Misha Collins has proven that just because you come from a tough background does not mean that you don't have the same chances as everyone else, growing up in poverty and even being homeless for a portion of his childhood he was able to leave all of that behind him and become successful and skilled enough to be able to build his own home for his family, he has also been able to learn from his experiences and become a better man because of it. He also has been a big contributor to charity with the Random Acts campaigns and the GISH scavenger hunts.

There are many infamous quotes from the show and from the actors that resonate deeply with me, some of them more than others, "Family doesn't end with blood " this one has meant the most to me, when my biological family weren't enough or weren't there for me I had my Supernatural family to turn to in times of need, "Decide to be fine until the end of the week. Make yourself smile, because you're alive and that's your job. Then do it again the next week " just because you're not okay now does not mean that it's going to be like this forever, you just gotta take it a little bit at a time until it gets a little easier, "You know, who cares where happiness comes from? Look, we're all a little weird, we're all a little wacky – some more than others – but... if it works, it works." It's okay to be a little odd, whatever works for you works and that's okay don't let anyone tell you any different.

So Thank you Supernatural for not only saving my life but making my life a whole lot better and worth living.

Thank you xx❤️