Owner Of My Heart

Chapter 12

Parang ang bilis ng pangyayari..
Parang kahapon lang eh kinukulit ko pa si Kai.
Hanggang ngayon kinukulit ko pa rin siya.

Pero iba na.

Kasi alam ko na gusto ko siya.

Nang narealize ko yun ay agad ko na sinabi sa kanya. I think there's nothing wrong with that. I told him what I felt right away. Ilang buwan na ako sa isla and I know my crush on him started early.

I just don't want to admit it.

Pero parang may kakaiba.. Sa sobrang bilis ng pangayayari parang ang tagal ko na siyang gusto. But that's impossible right?  It's more possible to fall inlove with him that soon than to think the possibility that I loved him even before we met.

Nasa veranda ako habang nanonood ng mga bituin.

Ahem.

Its Kai.

He sat beside me and looked at the stars as well.

Anong iniisip mo?
Parang deja vou. I remember last month he was sitting in the shore when I approached him and asked him what he was thinking.

Natawa ako.

Now he's asking me what I was thinking like what I did back then.

Tinignan ko siya

Im thinking about you...

Napailing siya saka tumingin ulit sa langit

Totoo naman eh. Iniisip kita talaga kita.

She's just too honest. He can't read his expression pero kung siya ang nasa lugar ni Kai sigurado maiinis ako sa sarili ko. I'm too vulgar.

Bumalik na ang alaala mo?
Nagulat ako.

He's still looking at the stars.
I don't know if he noticed my uneasiness but Im not comfortable with this. I had dreams of my past but I never told him and now he's here suddenly asking it in my face.

Napalunok ako.

B-bakit mo n-natanong..

Avoiding his gaze was the best option for me. I'm afraid if I look straight into his eyes I might tell the truth.
Pag sinabi ko sa kanya he will have the reason to return me to the city.

Napapansin ko.

Napansin niya na bumabalik ang alala ko?! Hindi ako makasagot.

Ang mga pagbabago sayo.
He looked at me and I quickly looked away.  Pagbabago sa akin?

Anong pagbabago?
Kinakabahang tanong ko

Pananalita. Kilos. Marami.

Maiksi ang sagot niya but accurate.
He noticed the changes on my language. Hindi ko alam kung kalian nagsimula.  Pero tama si Kai. My language.. Napansin din ni Lin ito she told me on how fluent I was speaking English.

Parang sanay na sanay ako.
Napansin niya rin sa sarili niya na parang kilalang kilala niya ng ugali niya. She knew herself and what she like and don't.

Is it because of the incident last Fiesta? Noong muntik na akong mapahamak?

The first flashback I had happened after that incident.  Simula noon ay sunod sunod na.. But still all of those were unfamiliar to her. Hindi niya alam kung nangyari o hindi. Kung totoo o panaginip lang.

No Kai. Wala pa akong maalala.

Alam ko na hindi si Kai naniniwala pero hindi na ito sumagot pa. He must be thinking to return her to her family again. Napag usapan na nila ito noon sinabi na niya ng desisyon niya ay hindi pa rin ito magbabago.