Mum yelled at me to get up. I moaned. "Jesse is coming home today and I promised Linda I'd give her a hand, so if you don't come down now your going to have to get your own breakfast" mum said now beside me.
This wakes me up. "Jesse's coming home" I repeat. Mum frowns. "Honey you knew he was gonna come home for the summer." I sigh. Yea I did. I knew to damn well.
I got out of bed and followed mum downstairs. I ate my breakfast and then went upstairs to get dressed.
I would have to see Jesse again. I mean I couldn't ignore him! We were neighbours! Our mums were best friends. I knew he was going to come home for the summer. But part of me still didn't believe I was going to see him again. I didn't want to see him again. He left me. Never called, never emailed. We knew he was going but he didn't keep in contact. Then I was on Facebook and saw a picture of him with a girl. He was kissing her. When he came back for Christmas I ignored him. I didn't even look at him. Now I had to try do that for two months.
I didn't think I could do it. Hours passed when mum rings. "Yea?" I ask. "Are you coming over? Jesse was asking for you" mum says. "Well I don't want to see him. I don't want to look at his fucking face." I yell and slam down the phone. It wasn't fair that I took it out on mum but he just made me so mad!
I go upstairs and cry in my room. Why does he make me feel like this?
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I wake up and roll out of bed. Coffee. I need coffee. So I get dressed and grab a tenner and go out of my room, down the stairs and I walk into the kitchen to say bye to mum when I see Linda and Jesse in the kitchen. I freeze in the doorway just looking into his eyes. He looks back. I feel my anger. I didn't want to make a scene so I just turn around and go out of the house slamming the door after me. I run down the street but am suddenly pulled back roughly by the arm. I turn around. It's him. "What the hell" I yell. He stares at me. I try to tug my arm away but I'm not srong enough. "Let go of me" I yell. He continues to stare at me. "What the fuck are you looking at" I yell again. "What happened?" He asks quietly. I'm shocked. He cheated on me. That's what happened. I look at him. "What happened to make you hate me?" He asks again and this makes me angry. Before I try again to pull my arm away he pulls me in closer. "What happened?" He asks. Outer noses inches apart. "You left. You cheated. You broke my heart. You made me cry." I say simply.
Hurt flashes his eyes. "How-" He started. I smirked. "Jesse I'm over you. Now stay the fuck away from me."
I turn around, now free of his grip and walk to the coffee shop to get my well desevered coffee.
When I return home I go up to my room and log in on Facebook. I have six notifications and two messages. I browse around and finally type in Jesses name. I deleted him as a friend nearly a year ago. His profile picture and cover had changed. His profile picture was him smiling in the sun and his cover was him and a guy arm wrestling. I clicked on his photos and then landed on the one I hated most.
Then my door opened. I quickly clicked out of facebook and looked up to see my lydia. "We need to talk"
"What about?" I ask her. She looks at me. "Jesse came to my house. I told him I wouldn't tell you, but it's important that you know" she starts. "He loves you. He missed you while he was away" she said and the got up from my bed. "I'm gonna go before you get annoyed" she adds and then goes.
What the hell? He kissed another girl! Yea ok, people make mistakes but I couldn't even look at him without thinking about her. Things would never be right between us.
I couldn't see any future as us being friends. So he would have to get over me. Just like I got over him. No, I'm not over him though....
I go downstairs to get something to eat. I feel depressed. I go into the kitchen and sigh when i see mum is out. No lecture about this morning. I should feel bad for Jesse but i dont! I just want to get over him.
