More than friends: A Kyungsoo Fanfiction

Chapter 6

Birthdays: Twenty-four

Mood: Confused

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Just a white blank space after the skype message he had written weeks ago. You wanted to answer it, you really did. But by now even writing to him had only become painful.

K: Y/N. You're alive, aren't you ? I've been trying to call you.

You had never wanted this to happen, but you and your best friend had not managed to see each other for quite a long time. The last time had been your first own mini exhibition, half a year after your wedding. It had been different. Totally different. You didn't know what the hell was wrong with you. But suddenly every word he said gave you a special comfort, and every single touch you received from him seemed to exist to caress you. The whole time you had been sure that the childish part of your brain was just trying to trick you out of your marriage. You loved Chanyeol. But you didn't know if this was enough since you two were so different. You felt like you could not even tell him how work was without boring him to death, although he tried to hide it. You in turn sometimes noticed that you hated the sound of him chewing. Sometimes you imagined Kyungsoo having breakfast with you, or fighting about the space in front of the bathroom mirror in the mornings. Sometimes you imagined him being the one you went to bed with. And once you had to prevent yourself from thinking even further. You had barely slept that night. You had just waited for your thoughts about Kyungsoo to fade away once you didn't see him for months. But it didn't happen.

Your fingers slid over the keyboard.

Kyungsoo. I know this sounds crazy. I am going completely crazy and it's your fault. I would be doing just fine with my marriage and my career if it wasn't for you. I miss my best friend. No, you are not even a best friend to me. I'm in love with you. No, it's more... I love you.

So do you think I could just throw away everything I worked for so hard, leave Chanyeol, move to the other side of the world and be a family with you and Nari forever ? Do you think it's possible ?

You smiled at yourself sarcastically. It wasn't your first time doing this, but you would of course always press the delete key. It was just playing around in the end.

Your phone rang and violently ended your trance. When you saw that it was Chanyeol it made you jump and quickly delete the message in panic. You waited for silence. Three rings like always when he came from work.

You looked back at the screen and what you saw made your heart stop. You had pressed the send key instead of deleting the message.

Kyungsoo is online.

God, no ! You searched for a way to delete a sent message, but your fingers didn't even move as you wanted. It didn't matter. There wasn't such a function. You cursed.

Kyungsoo is typing.

He wouldn't really answer this would he ? Dear God, please let him spill his coffee over his pc and phone and everything and think it was just a joke and never talk about it again.

Typing... typing...

With a quick click you closed the window.

Okay, you had to calm down. What Options did you have?

First, you could tell Kyungsoo that it was nothing but a prank. Although it didn't suit your character you would do your best to convince him. It would still be the most embarrassing thing ever.

Second, you could confess to him and your life would be ruined, Chanyeol would hate you, and Kyungsoo as well if he didn't feel the same way. Maybe he would hate you no matter what. You were still married in the end.