He pulled me upright by my hair. He had me pinned against the wall with his body. I'm only 5'6inches tall and he towered over me so he must have been about 6'4 and he was strong suddenly he whispers in my ear look what we have here I told you I would see you you later didn't I little girl. I'm going to have some fun with you now and he starts laughing. Everything from that moment on is in slow motion. I'm still struggling he punches me in the face and tells me to stop struggling. He pulls me to the ground his hands are still gripping me I try to scream but he clamps his hand over my mouth. He's on top of me now trying to get my knickers down I'm trying to flip him off by lifting my body off the ground but he's too heavy. He tells me to stop struggling and he will go easy on me by this point I'm crying my eyes out I'm trying to plead with him not to do this but he just laughs at me. He's ripped my knickers off. He shoves them in my mouth and says there that will stop you from screaming and starts laughing again. By this time he's took off his tie and is tying my hands together. I'm still trying to move but it's no use . Now he's messing with his trousers he's pulling them down. I was terrified I've never even had a boyfriend let alone have sex. Suddenly a hot pain is in between my legs and he's forcing himself in me. He can't get any further so he pulls out and spits on his hand and rubs his penis with his hand to lubricate it and starts to push himself in me again. He starts pumping himself into me and says that's better. My whole ordeal lasts for about half an hour but to me it feels like a life time. When he is finished gets up off me and beats me then he leaves me bloody and broken in the alley unconscious . When I wake it's just getting light my hands are still tied with his tie and I still have my knickers in my mouth I ache all over I'm bloody and bruised and broken. My only thought is to get out of the alley and to get home to shays I'm numb. In my mind all that's repeating is ive got to stay strong over and over again. I'm on my feet I've took my knickers out of my mouth and am staggering down the alley suddenly I see Shay,Kelly and the rest of them in front of the alley. Shay freezes and turns round so she's facing me her eyes go wide in shock. The next thing I know she's running towards me she's grabbing me in a hug and she's crying I collapse onto the ground she's still holding me and rocking me saying she's so sorry. Please forgive me I'm so sorry please forgive me over and over again. By this time it's sunk in what has happened to me and I'm hysterical sobbing my other friend are stood frozen at the mouth of the alley Shay screams at one of the to phone the police. The police arrive and now I'm sat in the night club with a blanket around me Shay untied my hands but has kept the tie in a plastic bag to give the police
I'm taken to the hospital. I'm scared . I'm left in a cubical the doctor apeares thankfully it female I'm told to take off my clothes and put them in the bag which I do I'm given a gown to wear I'm asked by the doctor gently to get on the bed and lie down she explains what she's going to do step by step . First she takes this long thing it looks like a big cotton bud but it's longer she tells me that it's to see if the rapist left any DNA in me. I'm still sobbing she's trying to comfort me as best as she can. Next she scrapes under my nails. Once she's finished I ask her if I can take a bath because I feel dirty. Once ive had a bath a police officer comes to ask me questions. This is the hardest thing I've had to do explain from start to finish what happened . Some of the questions were very hard I felt as if I was the one that committed the crime. After what seemed like days but it was only about 6 hours I was allowed home. I went to Shays with her she was still saying sorry over and over and to forgive her but I'm too numb to even say anything. I just feel empty and numb and dirty. I tell Shay I need another bath so I go into the bathroom and run one I make sure the water is scolding and I put bleach into it from under the bathroom sink. It's hot when I step in but I force myself to sit in it. I stay in the bath until Shay knocks the water is tepid now. I get out of the bath and as I'm walking past the mirror I just happened to look at it. My face is unrecognisable my left eye is swollen shut a have a big gash above it . my eyebrow is the whole of my face is bruised I've got split lips both of them my other eye is black but not as bad as the left. My nose has a cut across it and is broken. My neck has hand marks around it and is red raw. I'm brusied down below it tender to touch and when I got to have a wee it stings slot. The doc said that I was torn down there because of how rough he was with me I had to have three stitches there. She said after a couple of days it won't sting as much. I still feel dirty and I can't even look at myself anymore.
